A couple months ago, I started attending Dmitri Bilgere’s course The Inspiration
Process.
A few days ago I got to be the model being processed. Even though I
“know” the steps of the process from taking the course, I had some
great insights and felt inspired after completing the work. Coming
out the other side, I had great realization of who I am and who I want
to be in my life. This recording shows how effective The Inspiration
Process can be. I hope you enjoy it. I certainly did!
Tonight we celebrated our experiences from 2020 and released old
energies that no longer serve us.
Breathe for a moment.
Taking nice deep breaths fully into your body.
Yeah. Breathing fully in, and just let it out.
Once more fully in, and out.
Allowing the shoulders to relax; [allow] any concerns for the day
to just drop away.
This is our last weekly alignment of 2020, and an opportunity to
reflect on the year and prepare ourselves mentally and
psychologically for the new year, 2021.
And in part of that process, I want to allow time to release any
ideas that no longer serve us; release any responsibilities that
no longer serve us.
So taking a moment to look in your mind, noticing your body,
noticing your daily life.
What are some things that no longer serve you, that you can
release as we finish this year?
You can take a moment to write them down or say them out loud,
just off the top of your head. What do you notice?
So, yeah, it was beautiful. And thanks for going deep on that.
Recognizing there may be more things to release, think about the
agreements that you've made with other people.
Are there any agreements that you have made, which no longer serve you?
And just allow this idea to come lightly in your mind, recognizing
there may be some old agreements that you made and they may no
longer serve you.
Yeah. Thank you. Thank you for exploring that as well.
And now taking a moment to notice any ideas that you project onto
other people that they may be expecting of you.
Whether or not it was a formal agreement, there may be an idea
that people are expecting things of you.
So of these, are there any that you want to release?
So that was the list of what you believe others expect of you.
And there may be some overlap, but take a moment breathing for a
moment. What are some things that you expect of yourself that no
longer serve you?
Writing down the expectations you have of yourself that may no
longer serve you.
For these, there may be a renegotiation or some type of adjustment
to the agreement with yourself or the expectation of yourself.
As you are looking at the list of the ones that you have given to
yourself, remember what was the original reason that you created
this expectation of yourself?
And maybe that will help inform a way that it can be adjusted to
serve you better.
And you don't have to have a final decision right now, but this is
just noticing the things that have kind of collected in life.
This is a chance to look at the things, to get them out. And
during the next two week period is to churn them over and simply
listing them out now is not the final answer.
But if there are some that are clearly no longer serving you, this
would be a time to say "Okay. That one's done."
So, yeah, please do take that time during the next two weeks until
we meet again.
Inventory processes can take some time, so an invitation to give
yourself that time.
Take a moment to breathe again, getting present with your list,
present with your body. And we'll do a little litmus test, a
little emotional check for these items.
Starting with one that attracts your attention, imagine continuing
this topic or this agreement, this behavior in your life.
How does it feel as you imagine continuing? How does your body
feel as you imagine continuing this process?
And just recognize it lightly. We're not sinking too deep
now. Lightly noticing how it feels then releasing that feeling for
a moment.
Imagine letting go of this belief or this agreement.
How does it feel as you imagine letting go?
And again, very lightly: these are not hard and fast decisions
that we're making. Simply noticing how the body feels with the
idea.
And as you have time during the holiday era, as we're
transitioning to a new year, just looking at each of these things
with your feeling body.
Allow yourself to go through the list, engaging your feeling body.
Feeling the idea of continuing and feeling the idea of releasing.
Feeling the idea of adjusting these expectations, giving yourself
time to process each one.
Thank you for taking time to process with me, too.
Take a moment to breathe, just releasing any tension in your body,
nice deep breath and just let it out, let you know the tension
drop off of your shoulders, allowing your body to breathe
itself. Welcome brother, checking in with your body in this
present moment, similar to the being present. Without future or
past. How did that go for you during the week. Yeah. Sounds like a
new adventure in a way like starting the clearing process. So you
can begin the year a new. Very nice. for the program
today. Listening to the mind chatter. And being able to
distinguish chatter that's coming directly from mind and ego
versus information, which could be words could be sensations could
be feelings that are coming from a higher place a spiritual
source, as it were, that has our best interests in mind, and a
grander viewpoint than what we have been here in the middle of
life on the planet, and within this time dimension in three
dimensions of space. How do you distinguish between mind chatter,
and inspiration, coming from spirit. Like in your mind receiving
inspiration from spirit or higher self versus the background mind
chatter of this more basic within the 3d realm as opposed to
having this higher perspective. So we're going to explore that
tonight. Practicing distinguishing between mind chatter, and
insight from the, from a higher source in higher space. So, just
taking a moment. If you want to have a notebook ready, this is a
good time to prepare that good teen present in your body. Allow
yourself to tune in to that ceiling that you described associated
with information coming from the higher self. The
excitement. Allow yourself to tune in. Very simply being
connected. Simply and clearly to this feeling may feel like
love. You may feel warm. He may feel excitement, just tuning in to
this sensation, recognizing that this connection is always
available at any given moment, with the intention of connecting to
your highest self. Use your mind or your voice with your intention
to connect only to your highest self in your best
interest. connected to your purpose in life. In this
moment. Welcoming your connection. Clearly and simply allow
yourself to have a bit of a dialog. Very simple. With the answers
coming, even as soon as you can pose the question, how do you
connect most clearly with your higher self. What type of
questions. Can you ask of your hire So when is your higher self
available for you. Well now we, the answers to come very clearly
and simply write down any answers that you hear, as it best serves
you. recognizing this connection in a very clear way, asking your
higher self how to distinguish between the higher self insights
and other ramblings of the mind. Feeling that love warm open
connection. Thank your higher self, your own cell for creating the
connection. And we'll practice, keeping the connection open while
speaking with each other in keeping the connection open while
writing in your notebook. Take a moment to write in your notebook
any insights you received. Welcome to share with me as you
wish. For me, my higher self always uses positive language. So,
for me if I hear something like, do not do this. That's for me
that's not from my higher self, the phrasing is always
positive. Loving patient calm. These are words that I've used to
describe my, the sensations I get connected to higher so while I
was leading the meditation, I. It was my intention to just bring
it all down from from higher self so I don't remember all the
questions that I asked in that meditation, but I think there's at
least one or two more that were there. Did you notice any other
insights that came during the meditation. The mind is well versed
and offering things to think about. So, allowing awareness, step
back from the mind while it's busy chattering. Okay. Gavin Watson
notice that the mind is there, busily trying to keep control,
maybe a way to describe it. So yeah. The next thing I had planned
is very related to that and related related to last week, or maybe
two weeks ago, where we allowed the mind chatter to go down down
down into the worst possible scenario. And having done that
exercise already. Last week, we don't need to do the exercise,
again, but just notice what it felt like doing that, you can do a
very abbreviated version of that exercise, what might happen, and
noticing the downsides. But more importantly, noticing how it
feels when these types of thoughts are coming up for you. Notice
if there is a difference in your posture. Notice the difference in
your energy in your body. Is there a difference in the tension. Is
there a difference in how quickly your mind is moving. Simply
notice how it feels. For the mind to take over and go down the
rabbit hole. And now practice, releasing the mind coming back up,
as it were, into the feeling connected to your higher
self. Welcome in your focus your hero awareness back into your
higher self. Notice the difference in the texture of the
feeling. Notice the posture of your body. Notice the speed with
which your mind is moving. Notice the space between your
consciousness, and your mind. As your consciousness is more fully
present and aware with your higher self. And just as practice is
an exercise. Allow your consciousness to move back to your
mind. Connecting to one of the thoughts. Connecting to one of the
thoughts and just allow your consciousness to lock on to the
thought noticing how it feels. As your consciousness is locked
into a thought. Is there a difference this time. After being
connected to your higher self versus a previous time where maybe
you've been lost in thoughts all day. One type of indication, can
you notice that to become lost in thought. How can you remind
yourself to reconnect to your higher self. From inside this
state. Practice noticing yourself lost in thought, and use that to
bring yourself back into awareness of your higher self. No to
seeing your body, noticing your breathing reconnecting to the
space. The silence, in which your higher self rests. Notice this
way of noticing. When you've become lost in thought. So you can
more easily recognize in your day to day activities. Maybe setting
an intention for yourself. To quickly notice when you've become
lost in thought, allowing yourself to keep connection to your
higher self consciously. This will be our playful exercise, size,
during the week. Practicing staying connected to higher
self. Recognizing it's a process. The higher self is slowly
welcoming and accepting giving yourself time to practice this new
way of being. Thank you for practicing with me now.
So happy Akiko, Cyabo, and Yui joined Amaru and I in the walking
meditation workshop today. Amaru has joined three times, and for
Akiko, Cyabo, and Yui, it was their first time each.
Entering the park, we walked slowly under the beautifully yellow, orange, red, crimson leaves on trees near the
新宿門 entrance. Walking meditatively toward the spot we used the
past two times I have done walking meditation, we took in the colors
and took some pictures.
I pointed out the nice soft grass and guided them to carefully try the
rough surfaces of the asphalt sidewalks, including grates and round
plates (manhole covers).
We did some freestyle meditative walking around the green tarp which
held our stuff, and I tried crawling on the ground to get more contact
with grass and earth. Amazingly, I found a bee(?) that was in its
final stages of life, and held it in my hand for a while. Foolishly,
I did not take a picture of it. Somehow I thought that would be
irreverent, and now I wish I had the pic for my journal.
We ended up sitting in a group and I led some breathing meditation
while feeling connected with the body and earth.
The wind started picking up a bit so we left our space around 1:30pm.
Amaru headed home and I walked through the greenhouse with Akiko,
Cyabu, and Yui.
Tonight we had a chance to notice we still exist even without a past
or future. How does a timeless being use its skills while living in
time?
Sit back, relax, and discover your truth for yourself. :-)
Noticing your physical body, allow yourself to simply be in the
body, being with your breath.
Your physical body has a past in the physical dimension. Your
body has had experiences and changes over time.
The body uses oxygen and burns food to give it energy. These are
all natural processes. The body knows how to take care of itself.
So the body exists in time. And for this exercise, we will allow
ourselves to let go of the body, knowing it will be here when we
are finished, as the body has a future.
So, just thank your body for a moment and allow it to take care of
itself. We will be right back with the body.
Noticing what remains, you might notice mental thoughts and
ideas. These often have a time component based in memories and
repetition.
So let's also allow these mental constructs to drop away, noticing
what remains as you release everything about your history,
everything about your future, just let it drop away.
Noticing something remains. There is an awareness.
Mind may come back trying to get your attention. Just allow it to slip away.
Noticing what remains as we drop everything away: all the concepts
of identity, all the words. Just allow them to slip away.
Noticing what remains, releasing all concept of identity or memory.
Noticing in this moment: noticing what is here. What is it that perceives?
Recognizing even as we release everything; allow everything to
drop away. Something remains.
Who or what is releasing?
Recognizing the part of you which remains, even as we drop away
everything.
Allow that part of you to re-inhabit the physical body. Maybe
connect with the notebook, just noticing what's here, capturing
this truth of who you are.
[allow time to write]
Again, allowing everything to drop away. Again, release your
physical body, thanking it for taking care of itself.
Again release any words. Releasing any identity.
Simply be here now.
Recognizing something cannot be released.
Recognizing no name, no form, no desire, no color.
It simply is.
Recognizing this IS-ness has no location, no time; it is always
here. Always now.
And so, as we begin to notice the body breathing, allow the
IS-ness to settle gently within the body, finding everything to be
working optimally, as you settle back into your body.
Beginning to remember this the history you have shared with the
body the experiences it's brought with you
Noticing this IS-ness is always here; always available for your
pure experience.
As you're ready, allow your fingers to begin to move. Remembering
this body has fingers has arms, legs. Reconnecting with this
physical body. Recognizing the IS-ness remains unchanging, even as
the body changes and moves.
Recognizing the part of you that remains, even after we release
the physical body [and] release the identity.
Notice this superpower as an innate quality, innate skill that has
come with this life you're experiencing.
Breathing into your ability and your skill which is one of many
skills but just thinking about the one for now for simplicity.
What are some ways that a timeless being can use this skill in an
environment of time?
Recognizing yourself at your essence, to be beyond time, how do
you use this skill within time? .. as you experience time?
This is a superpower offered as part of your package arriving into
this life experience.
This life experience is an opportunity for you to experience using
this power, almost as if it's one chance to use this power.
And yet as you exist beyond time you understand there are infinity
chances.
How do you use *this* chance *this* superpower while moving
through time *this* life?
Feel free to note down any inspirations that come.
Feel free to simply sit with your superpower outside of time,
knowing in your experience, you have unlimited time.
How do you serve yourself and others as you're experiencing time
together?
This is a meditation from one of my private sessions with a client.
It helps recover the energy of being able to speak freely. It’s
geared toward women as I use the word “her” a couple of times to refer
to the inner child.
This meditation loops to allow heart-centered cleaning your entire
space.
Take a moment to get connected to your body. Feeling present in your
physical space, noticing the things around you, their support of you.
Looking around in your physical space. Notice one item that speaks to
you. Allow your eyes to alight on it gently and easily.
Feel free to move toward it or connect with this item. You may feel it
with your hands, or simply notice it with your eyes. Feel what comes
up for you. As you notice this item.
Notice memories that may come up. Notice how it feels for you now
thinking of this item in your future.
Thank this item for having been in your life, placing it where it
needs to go. Maybe back where it was, or to a new place.
Now sitting and breathing. Notice how you feel after having connected
with this item.
And after having decided a new home for it. When you're ready, we'll
move on to the next item.
Breathe fully into your body and allow your eyes to gently move around
the space, until they alight on some item in the space around
you. Notice this item with your eyes. Notice it with your heart. You
may touch it physically, or just be present with it in a way that
serves you.
Notice what memories come up as you connect with this item. Notice
what feelings come up as you are present with it. Let your heart
recognize the optimal future for this item with regard to your
life. You may choose to release it. Place it in a new area, or leave
it in its current place. Thanking the item for its service in your
life. If you release the item blessing it on its future path.
If you choose to keep the item, thanking it for its blessing you on
your path. Take a moment to re-center yourself after acknowledging
this item.
Finding your authentic self. Breathing in your body, allowing yourself
to look around the room again. Let your eyes, alight on another item
in the room. Moving to that item, you may simply notice it with your
eyes, or hold it, and connect with it physically. Notice how it feels
seeing this item. Perhaps holding this item, recognizing your history,
and how it has served you. Choosing now, how it can best serve you in
the future. And where it's home will be going forward. You can choose
if it will be part of your life. You can choose if it will be released
to a new life of its own.
Make that choice now, feeling confident with your
decision. re-centering yourself in your body. Breathing, noticing your
breath. Once you feel centered allow your eyes to notice the next
thing in your room,
Moving toward that item, notice the feelings that come up for you, as
you see it and as you hold it. Maybe bringing your other senses. How
does it smell? What's the texture? Really acknowledging this item and
its role in your life.
Notice how it feels to see this item now. Noticing your opportunity to
choose the future home for this item, whether it be a new life for
this item to live on its own, or a shared experience with your own
life, and this item continuing to be in your space. Noticing the
feelings that come up, noticing the memories that come. Allow yourself
to make a clear choice as to how to process this item and moving on
with the process. Once you're complete, allow yourself to get
re-centered. Breathing fully into your body,
Starting with our Deepest Desire from last week, we explored our
innate abilities (our super powers) and how they can be used to help
heal ourselves:
This audio is taken from the live interactive recording:
Take a moment and get present in your space. We'll do just a few
grounding piece, to reconnect with your purpose and inner
strength.
Settling into your seat. Just notice your breathing. Just take
some nice, deep breaths. Fully inflating your lungs and body just
let it out.
Breathing in again, fully inflating your lungs and your whole
body. Just let it out.
One more time. Imagine breathing all the way in to all parts of
your body. Hold it, and... just let it all back out.
Let your breathing come back to its own natural pace, dropping all
of the tension. All the thoughts and ideas from today.
Just allow them to shrug off your shoulders and drop down to the
ground, to be grounded by Mother Earth.
Recognizing within yourself, this desire to have protection. This
desire to have purpose. This desire to live fulfilled life -
is coming from within you.
A deep part of you is calling to remind you of your true self.
Recognizing that self is here, perhaps buried under fears and
ideas and thoughts about what must happen first. Just allow those
to drop away. Imagine settling in to your true self.
Settling into your inner strength, settling into your inner purpose.
Just notice what it's like having this energy, knowing it's
here... not having to know when or how we'll use it. Just
breathing into the truth of yourself, here.
Your full potential is present, allowing you to move into action if
and when necessary.
This is your innate superpower.
And like any superhero, you don't have to wield your power all the
time. It's simply there.
Simply there for your confident weilding as needed, whenever needed.
Take a moment, just jot down what that looks like.
What's it like to confidently wield your superpower when it's
needed?
Allow that vision to come to life on the paper. How does it feel
having this power at your disposal?
As you come to completion writing, thank your power for always
being here, just acknowledging it, reacquainting yourself with
this power.
Like a fish swimming, it's not something they think about so much.
It just happens naturally.
Who would like to share what came up?
[snip]
Beautiful. I like the present tense version of all those as
well. It was great. Simple ways of living, that are empowered by
your superpower there. Nice, thank you.
[snip]
Having those actions are natural processes, part of your
superpower of being on purpose in your life. Thank you.
So, the next little bit is take a moment to anchor in your body
which means to make a mental note to yourself, what it feels like
having this power.
You've taken a moment to notice the power. Now just taking a
moment to remember the feeling, the sensation, maybe the voice or
posture of this power. As it's always here, we may not always
notice what it's like, so just take a moment and notice what it's
like to have this power. How does it feel in your body?
Once you've got it fully burned into your memory, we'll move on to
the next segment here, which is notice seen the things that
disrupt and occlude your awareness of your power. It's not
occluding your power, which is always there. But just your
awareness might get blocked or distracted from the fact that you
have this power.
More of a mental thing, maybe just as discussion, what are some of
the things that block you from recognizing your power? For me, for
example is worrying about what people will think about me.
[snip]
We'll go down that road for a bit. Tonight, what are some of the
things that block your awareness of your power, and your
connection to purpose?
The next exercise is: allow allow our brain to spiral out of
control for a bit; we'll stay in control, but we're just going to
let, have some fun with this.
And writing, starting with the top layer. If I try to recall, like
"what will people think?" kind of idea. You know,.. "what if they
don't respect what you're trying to do" or, you know, whichever
language fits for you best in that regard.
And "if there's not enough time" kind of as the top level, big
fear that I heard. And so these, take a moment to write that down:
the top level fear that's easy to recognize.
We're about to exaggerate it. Yes. Yeah, but for now just, like,
[use] "there's not enough time" [as the topmost fear], something
external to yourself, so "not enough time" and then the "people's
reaction" kind of thing.
And so, right above that line, "what might happen if..." And then
you've got that biggest fear, showing up. So you go one
level... if that happens, go one level deeper. If there's not
enough time what's going to happen? Write that down. If people
don't respect you... what might happen?
I've never done this exercise in parallel. So if you get stuck
just speak up, but go down about five levels at least. Just let
your mind go crazy about what disaster might happen.
[snip]
Yeah. We're just. Yeah, yeah, Yeah, like make it worse make it
worse all the way down.
In a way, have fun with it but these are real fears that your mind
is bringing up to you each day.
Go at least five levels, and if you're on a roll just keep it
rolling.
[What if I get to something positive?]
That's actually fine is keep rolling through it, what might happen
if this positive thing happens?
Well yeah, the self talk also could be part of it, you know, "I
talk down to myself" and therefore, this might happen. Therefore,
this might happen...
Whatever it may be, this is really, we're allowing the brain to
just go crazy and get all this stuff out there, so we can see
clearly what's in here [points to head] as a background noise.
[snip]
Yeah. Beautiful. Yeah. Again, thank you for driving down into
that. Again, we're putting onto paper. This is what the background
noise may be as I'm going through the day. It was like "this is
what I'm up against? Oh no!" kind of thing.
So, dropping back down to visualization mode, reconnect with that
anchoring we did a while ago, where you know how it feels. You
feel your positive superpower. Ready for you at any moment.
Again, not every moment, just as it's needed. You use it
skillfully. You use it wisely. Once you're fully connected again
with your superpower, that's always there and your awareness is
fully connected, take a look at that mind chatter that you wrote
down.
How does your superpower serve you clearing through this mind
chatter? What are some ways you can wield your superpower,
skillfully, wisely, artfully, in the face this background mind
chatter?
[snip]
Yes, Thor is like, Yeah, he's not bothered. He's like yeah, it
doesn't matter. Perfect. Yeah. Thor as a perfect archetype for her
inner strength. Absolutely. Breathe into that.
[snip]
Right. Yeah, exactly. There's the power you have
[to connect with others], what is business but connections with
people? And so that's a perfect power to build the connections
that the company has, and new ones that are needed in the
future. So yeah. Breathe into that, that is a natural skill that
you have, and it serves your role.
[snip]
And so, this is live interactive like so it's kind of a freestyle
as serves the group. So, thank you for deep dive.
