18 Sep 2019, 21:42

I can choose to do anything (and no one really cares)

So long as I do stuff within a normalized range, no one really cares what I do.

I can spend all day trying to figure out one bug, or ignore it. No one will know the difference. I could even quit my job, and just a few people will notice. (some people very much so, but 99+% will not)

Re-reading the above sounds like I am suicidal, but I am not. My point is quite exactly the opposite.

I can wear shoes or not, and no one cares. But I care. I love being barefoot 99% of the time, and am working toward doing it more.

I can work on Marble Track 3 or not; no one cares. But I care! I love the project; I love talking about it, I love its steady progress building up to something over time. I love the ridiculousness of it; I love people’s incredulous reactions when I say 1 second of video took 2 hours to make (and it’s going to be a lot higher, tbh.. 2 hours per second is just for a silent video!)

I can stop doing workshops and no one cares.. But I care! I did the eye gazing workshop and it was great!

For some reason I have had (and still have) this fear that I cannot do anything different from what I have been doing before, but this is simply not true! How untrue is it?

Just this past weekend I did stand a few minutes of up comedy for the first time (with no prior practice nor planning) and it was fine; it was easier than I expected. I could do that, (or not, and no one cares,) but I don’t want to do that.

I want to put together a Silent Football game, though Rin has recommended I focus on my Barefoot Rob brand first, but I don’t wanna! What should I do? ergg this is so confusing.

Instead of being frustrated, can I instead see the steading progress forward like on Marble Track 3?

This is an age-old question, and the answer seems to be it does not really matter; just do what I want to do!