17 Jan 2026, 12:35

I'M FINE! book launch and Emotional Awareness Workshop at The Pink Cow

Join us for yummy food and deep connection at The Pink Cow!

Date: Saturday, February 28, 2026
Time: 5:00 PM – 6:00 PM
Location: The Pink Cow, Akasaka
Venue: https://www.thepinkcow.com/
Address: 1-3-18 Akasaka, Minato-ku, Tokyo 107-0052
DG22 building 3rd floor

π—œβ€™π—  π—™π—œπ—‘π—˜! Book Launch & Signing Party & Workshop @ The Pink Cow

Come join me at The Pink Cow - Restaurant, Art Bar & Funky Space on Saturday February 28th!

𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 πŽππ„: π–πŽπ‘πŠπ’π‡πŽπ

Do you enjoy deeper connection? Join at 5pm for a one‑hour workshop inspired by my book π—œβ€™π—  π—™π—œπ—‘π—˜!

Please RSVP here or on the LINE QR Code above to help us know how many to expect!

Outline:

  • placing our orders from their delicious California-Mexican menu
  • connecting with a simple check‑in circle,
  • enjoy a few engaging activities focused on emotional awareness
  • enjoy our yummy food orders from The Pink Cow!

I’ll also read a short section from my book π—œβ€™π—  π—™π—œπ—‘π—˜!… featuring my rarely‑heard Texan accent 🀠

No fixed price: donations welcome

Seats are limited for the workshop, so RSVP and See you there!

𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 π“π–πŽ: πŒπ„π„π“ 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐄𝐀𝐓

No RSVP needed! If can’t join this time for the workshop, or you’d prefer to just say hello, come between 6pm and 7pm for a casual meet and eat!

Celebrate the launch with a signed copy of π—œβ€™π—  π—™π—œπ—‘π—˜! (Β₯2000)

Come as you are and see you there!

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DG22 building 3rd floor


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30 Oct 2025, 00:00

Introduction to I'M FINE!

I’M FINE!

I'M FINE! book cover

A Practical Guide to Managing Your Emotions

To Strengthen Relationships With Loved Ones… And Yourself

Most men grow up being told to “man up,” “shake it off,” or “don’t be so sensitive.” We learn to say β€œI’m fine” even when we’re hurting inside.

But what if your emotions aren’t the enemy? What if they’re actually your most reliable guidance system?

This book gives you practical tools to understand your inner world, so you can lead your outer world with confidence, purpose, and heart.

πŸ‘‰ Feel deeply. Speak authentically. Connect powerfully.

πŸ“˜ Available on Kindle and paperback


🌟 Who This Book Is For

This book is for ambitious men who know they can handle the pressure but are starting to realize that keeping it all together takes more than just grinding harder.

This book is for men who have always wanted to do the right thing, but haven’t had the support, space, or language to actually deal with it.

You don’t have to do it alone. We can walk this path together.

If you’re ready to break the old rules, this book gives you a new way to live.


❀️ What You Will Learn

  • Why emotions are messengers, not problems
  • Tools to manage anger without hurting the people you love
  • How to turn vulnerability into genuine connection
  • Ways to rebuild intimacy, confidence, and self-trust

Your feelings are not a weakness. They are the secret to your power.


πŸ‘€ About the Author

Rob Nugen is a connection coach for men who helps them strengthen both inner courage and emotional presence. He brings decades of lived experience, coaching, and community leadership supporting men to reconnect with themselves and the people they love most.

β€œWe excel not by being perfect… but by being willing to feel.”


πŸ”₯ Ready to Step Into the Life You Know You’re Meant For?

If you’ve ever said β€œI’m fine” while feeling anything but fine, this book is your invitation back to honesty with your life.

πŸ‘‰ Get your copy here:

I’M FINE! book cover

Your world needs the real you.

16 May 2023, 06:52

0101 Things I learned from Old People

Granddad: “I’m just damn fine.”
Emotions are important

Monner: “Stop sending me these checks.”
Grandmother and God loves me no matter what

Ricky: “Now it’s time to build the magnificent structure on the foundation you’ve created.”
My life has purpose

Fred: “We can’t blame dad for our problems anymore.”
I choose how I show up in the world

Dad: “If two trees are leaning against one another, what happens if one falls?”
Find your inner strength

Ma: “You boys are driving me up the wall”
Parents are people too.

Jon: “That Guy in Austin”
no one knows who you are. Use that to your advantage; everyone is too worried about themselves to worry about you.

Rob: “It takes longer to live a life than read a biography”
change takes time in 3D.

Anikiko: “Follow The Whispers”
How many different ways can I say the same thing?

John: “Tell them I’m the expensive one”
You create your own life

Paola: “If you’ve found a program that works, grab on.”
No need to compare spiritual paths
Prodigal son story

Frederick Marx: “it falls to each generation to teach the new generation”
I burst into tears when I read that. Oh fuck. I can’t do it. I must do it. Aaaggggghhh and that was…. (checks email) 8 months ago.

Joe McMoneagle: “Just start planning”
Whatever you wanna do starts with an idea.

Robert Monroe: “Life on earth is addictive”
We want to come back again and again (to resolve our karma = mismatch from living according to Love –> Law of One)

______: “God dwells in you as you”

Robert Golden: “What do you really want to do?”
well, I want to walk across Japan..

16 May 2023, 06:52

0101 Things I learned from Old People

Things I learned from young people:

Nathan Brandli: I’ve learned to be grateful for the way my life is now while still moving towards what I want.

Robert Golden: “Have you read Whatever Arises, Love That

Robert M: “Welcome to speak at TEDxOgikubo”

Soness Stevens: “Step on the red dot”

Pavel: “we met at HackerX”
Shine uniquely

UA: “Be all you can be isn’t necessarily what God wants you to be.”

UA: “God as you understand God”

podcast: “Tithing tells God what you think is important in the world.”

podcast / Rob “Tithing tells God you have enough money to tithe.”

Emma Wild: “It may take time. It will grow if you keep at it and continue long term.”

Dai: “There is no time for any of that.”
addictions, distrust, hatred, fear,

All you -> me:


This is like a spiritual life biography for you.

And a key story you want to bring up across the course is not crying at his funeral.
emotions are important

The way that you express yourself as the way that the world responds to you.

Now the lesson in here is learning to tie it another one is learning about gratitude.

That your grandma doesn’t care what you call her
using that as an allegory for understanding that God doesn’t care what you call him or her

allowing people to recognize that they are here for a reason

That there must be a reason for life,

Tuning into the will of God as another one.

God dwells in you as you
which is a core part of what you want to get across in that.

06 May 2023, 11:11

2555 His Kingdom is bereft while you wait

Japanese date 5/5/5 on a yellow background

https://otter.ai/u/gD4etSSecahlW0nRtKNr43DhykQ

I’m singing a song to Jennie, my cat as he’s sitting here in my lap to sing in like, Jennie, Jennie, you’re my cat. And I love you. So, Jennie, Jennie, I’ll be here until you want to go. Just having her in my lap. I decided to hang out with her until she gets bored of me. Yeah, and, oh, here it goes. She’s almost getting bored. Okay, okay. Okay. So she got bored. Um, maybe it’s because the song ended and I started recording this hey Jennie.

But actually, I want to say last night, just last night, on the fifth of May so five, five. On the fifth year of the Reiwa era. I received a well message. Basically, the short version is that I forgot to bring my I forgot to put my bicycle parking lot card back into my wallet. I I trimmed I slimmed down my wallet one day when it was raining and I expected to get soaking wet. So I took everything out of my wallet. Except just like my identification card. out of my wallet at that time went the bicycle parking lot card with which I can update my sticker on my bicycle. Just for the record, this is the new black bicycle, the giant gravity a bicycle that I got I basically a year ago at this point. Yeah, so and that’s thanks to Mark for helping me select it and actually helping me buy it because at the time, I didn’t have no money. So the

Oh, so I didn’t have the card. I went to the parking lot. And I was like, Ah, crap, I forgot the card again. So I went to the desk, and I was like, Hey, man, I forgot my card. And basically, he didn’t know how to give me a new card with my old customer number on it. And so he’s like, yeah, sorry, took several minutes. He’s like, Yeah, sorry, this is gonna take too long. I’ll figure it out. And you pay me your money. This is this is very Japan. He’s like, you know, give me the money. And we’ll figure it out. But this is not Japan. He didn’t give me a receipt. I just I gave him like 6500 or he made some change back so 6300 yen and maybe more anyway doesn’t doesn’t matter. 6000 Yeah, six was anyway 6800 yen that’s it for sure. So I gave them 6800 yen and that included a 500 fee 500 again fee for making the new card.

And I grumbled a bit but as it because it took so long and silly me for forgetting the card but I was like feeling grumbly energy coming up. But I’m at Yeah, you know, it’s all good. And I kept saying I trust you God. When I left that left the desk left the parking lot the bicycle parking lot area I just my hands in the air. I was like high fiving guys like God, I trust you. It’s all gonna be good. It’s all fine. Even though I didn’t have a receipt or proof that I had paid. I was like it’s all good. And just basically let it fall out of my brain and went to a beautiful day in the park yesterday. Yogi Park was very crowded. Being the during Golden week holiday. So it’s the we just had three holidays in Japan. Today is Saturday. Oh, by the way, today’s Saturday at seven 50 2am On Saturday, April 6 2023. As I write this now or speak it into otter so

yesterday in the park was lovely. I got to re meet Oscar and Yumi who are friends of Jens and Kaori. They, I don’t know how Kaori and Jens met, nor how Oscar knew me. I know they did say that. Oscar Yumi met through a course. He took a course in meditation or something Transcendental Meditation. He may have said that. Yeah, so anyway, he met her through that. I don’t know how he ends and county met. This has no relevance in the beautiful day, but they all were basically on in the park for a picnic. That county arranged the date with me about a month ago. She’s uh, yeah, When can you come out? About may 5 Because that was the first day that I had available my calendar. And she was like, Cool. We’ll be there at one o’clock. I said, Cool. And I’ll be there at one o’clock. I was late. But they were more late. Oscar numi we’re not late. But my friend Ai, Ai-chan was there as well. She was there on time. So she’s the first one who I saw and then Oscar and you meet came back. They were in the park looking for us. And so everyone we all met up and it was all good.

And we found a place in the park had a lovely great day some more my friends came Mike from frisbee from Ultimate. And so go workout boot SOGO bootcamp, and so called Ultimate. And Elena joined and Mike Nelsestuen joined and who else Oh, Martin and Sue Susana, Martin and Susanna joined as well. And their friends via Missy actually who needed someone to help with cat sit her cat cats plural hasn’t five. So they met us via Petya, who knew about the cat situation. So? Yeah, so anyway, Michael Nelson, Steven saw them and was like, Oh, hey, it’s Martin and Susanna. So they came over and join us for a bit. It was great, though. Ellie was there with his son, Eyal. and think, oh, and then on Kaori’s side was Mi… Is that right? Yeah. Miho. And Yumi, Miho, Kaoru, Kaori were there.

So anyway, had a good time, and played played frisbee and it was great. And then people started to leave it started to get dark, not dark, but they left after lunch and stuff. Then Elena, Ai-chan, and I went into the park further to see the roses and the Rose Garden. And then I walked Elena out, because she had to go and then I came back to hang out with Ai-chan for a bit. Ai-chan asked me some questions about how I got started in my spiritual practice. And like, ask if there was a specific event or something. I hadn’t really thought about that. But just realizing that I had been working with the practicing massage, even in high school, through the youth group, and in one of our weekend rallies, we had someone a basic massage therapist, come and teach us some basics of Swedish massage, I guess it’d be called Swedish, but basically, manipulating the muscles to release tension and such. And so even since high school, I’ve been doing massage type stuff.

And I told her that my dad was into, like, what,, ESP and channeling and dowsing. He took a course from University of Santa Monica, about count a counseling course. And so yeah, all all good stuff. And I just was kind of immersed in it growing up. And remember even high school even in high school, I wanted to be a counselor. Which is interesting that I never really studied that. But yeah, all good, all good. So they had a nice talk was Ai-chan in a big hug at the end, and then headed out of the park.

Then I went directly to the barefoot walking event for full moon last night. And I felt really grateful the community is growing slowly but growing as in last month, and I think the month before, zero people attended. And it was like, Alright, I need to I need to advertise better, or cancel if there’s no RSVPs or something. And I’m still kind of feeling into how to do that. Because it was on while I was on the way there. Shinjiro said, hey, I’ll be there. Okay, good. I’m glad that I’m planning to be there. But I also had confirmation from Yoko’s friend Miho, who said she would be here be there is that right Miho? Because we had yes Yumi and Miho. Yes, was another second Miho that I met today. And then Shinjiro said his friend, Hiroto, not Hirota, which is more, which I’ve heard a few times, Hiroto also joined.

So had three attendees yesterday at the barefoot walking event. It was pretty chilly. So we didn’t stay that long. But we went out into the field. Under the full moon had a nice clear view of the full moon at times it was it was overcast. Well, it was cloudy, not overcast, but we could always definitely see the full moon even through the clouds. And yeah, really beautiful time, I did the meditation in Japanese a bit. And I’m too shy to even try it now and the audio but like allow, I didn’t really say Allow but like Moon Moon light shines down on on your body, you know, kind of thing is very simple guidance to allow us to be filled with moonlight and to allow the energy of the moon did or ultra release any negative energies that we don’t need any more. So in very clumsy Japanese, I was able to do some of those phrases, I think. I mean, they kind of came to me he like I think this might be a way to say that and just go for it.

And what’s really, really just so beautiful about the whole thing I am it was again a case of like, Wow, I can’t believe I’m getting paid to do this. And just so grateful to have this opportunity to serve and to to be of service in a way that people are feeling supported. And in all the cynic inspired me like I gotta learn some Japanese you know, better than having like doing verb drills or what have you. Then I so, feeling really blessed by the community growing and that I can support the community and everyone seemed to have a good time and it was all good even it was cold. We had great, great time and energy. Then I got headed headed back to my station. And Jennie Hey Jennie, how you doing?

So I then got got back to the bicycle parking lot area and had this what is it like note on my bicycle, that’s usually as a yellow note, I’m sure it says, Hey, looks like you forgot to pay. You know, and something something your sticker has expired or there’s no sticker whatsoever. And this is a warning will tell your tow your bicycle if you don’t sort it out quick. However, on top of that had been written, we’ll keep your card in the office, basically, we have your bicycle card, and then look down on the on my bicycle on the back was my updated sticker. And I just like I just was felt so grateful. I had a little cry in the moment. I’m like, Oh, God, thank you so much. And just like trusting God and higher power, and that it’s all gonna be okay. And it was beyond what I expected. I thought I’d have to go there and be like, Hey, I’m the guy that lost. But that little bit, they put the sticker on my bicycle for me. And in exactly the right spot where I’d want it to be on top of the previous one, which allows the first sticker to be visible still. And they didn’t rip off other stickers, apparently. Anyway, it was done just beautifully and perfectly. I’m so happy. I had a little cry of joy and just feeling really connected and supported and blessed. And yes, such a nice time.

And that was all while talking with Jess X Goh in Sydney, about our respective days, and how we’re really enjoying the process of living with God’s guidance and, and higher power and spirit. And we just have this shared kind of language about that. And I was like, hey, what does angel number 555 mean? Because that was the date written on the thing. And she’s like, Oh, I have to look it up. And so looking it up. It’s about abundance, about change about letting go of the old and allowing new to come in. And I was like, that sounds cool. And then, you know, gratitude for an angel number, the repetition there. And it’s, I mean, it’s not too surprising that on the date of the thing, however, it was triggered because I forgot the card. And because he didn’t know how to do it quick enough. He’s like, I’ll do it later.

So for at minimum, those two things. If had either one not been the case, I would not have received that handwritten 555 at the top of this notice. And so it’s like, that’s really neat. Oh, and then there’s a third one that I told him. I know, I will not be back before you guys close, because I’m going to the event and bla bla bla bla. So that’s three different things at minimum, any one of which I wouldn’t have gotten the note there. And yeah, so story’s not over yet.

So yeah, so about change and about prosperity and abundance and all of this stuff. I said, Cool. That is great. And then this morning, and this is like continuing the story that started over a month ago. Just this morning at 702 a m, I received the final, what’s the word like the link to do the to make the the official like sign the dotted line with ATG, the publisher of this book. And I don’t know exactly how and where the money is going to come from to pay for it. But it is It’s, I trust God. It is within my means. And it’s like, it’s just Alright. Cool. We’re going to do this right in the book.

It’s just really neat to have the 555 last night, and the email came in this morning. And yeah, really feeling the gratitude and blessing. And this is the the type of thing that I’m finding is normal as I’m continuing to shine gratitude out into the world.

Oh, and I, I talked to Eli yesterday at the picnic, and I asked, How does gratitude work? And he basically said, that this is a theory and he heard and he doesn’t know but that the, the formlessnesss, out of which the form arises, is most effectively directed with our vision, and our gratitude. And okay, that great, that’s basically what I have noticed as well, I wouldn’t use the terminology about the formless. But I’ve I’ve been using like terminology, like higher power responding to gratitude. And yeah, but fair enough. I like even going one one layer back to the, to the formless. And responding well to this is what I remember him, it may not be what he said, But responding well to the gratitude as we give the vision. And I’ve heard this and read this countless, countless times.

So dear reader, this is me, sharing with you. It’s been working, it works. For me, it’s working, sharing your vision, sharing your gratitude. It’s, it’s magic. And it’s working at the level that you will allow it to be true in your life. And so I’m saying that because I’m allowing it to be true at this level. When I sent the email off today, I sent it as best selling author, Rob nugen.com, had Mark. And it’s like just the gratitude and creating the vision best selling author for a long time. Going rewinding the story I’ve been looking up to by a my friend who I met here, he lived in the same guest house when he first came to Japan. And we had basically our commonality we’re both from United States, but he’s he’s from Brooklyn, and he’s into, into like basketball and sports and, and writing, which I wasn’t at that time. And we were basically like, proverbial ships passing in the night. We didn’t really connect. But I’ve always respected his work. And he’s been so he’s now like, well established as a writer, specifically in Tokyo. He wrote the book loco in Yokohama. He wrote, My name is Moses, my name is Biei. And I’m a racist, and really brilliant books. And he’s now writing the weekly or monthly column, black i In The Japan Times, I think. And at one point he posted on social media. I really loved the phrasing. He’s like visualizing his book, selling like tapioca.

Like That is hilarious. because it’s a beautiful thing. And it’s so funny that in like, five years ago, we started to get tapioca tea shops just popping up everywhere it’s like, and the same way that we nowadays you can just add, you know, AI to the business name and suddenly get a bunch of funding, all they had to do was put tapioca in the tea and suddenly sell a lot of tapioca. Or to sell a lot of tea. And he’s like, have his book sell like tapioca? And I was like, Yeah, I love that vision. And so, here’s me like 10 years, you know, his junior in terms of like books, but same vision, gratitude to higher power books selling like tapioca. And I there’s, to be honest, there’s a part of me who does not believe that it can be real and that certainly can can hinder. Your belief is creative. However, as I’m working with vents, and the A T G, team, the they’re well versed and helping get past these, the blocks and the and like, I’m not good enough kind of feelings that invariably come up. This is from the book, do the work. Forgot the author’s name, but invariably, it’s like I’m not good enough. This comes up and I hear it all the time. So yeah, anyway, I’m now babbling and and really feeling gratitude for this opportunity to do my own work. And thank you for doing your own work as it’s of critical critical importance. The the phrase be raft What was that line? I’m gonna pause this and find that line. This is from the course of A Course in Miracles chapter five. Number six time and eternity. God in His knowledge is not waiting. But his kingdom is bereft while you wait. All the sons of God are waiting for your return. Just as you’re waiting for there’s delay does not matter in eternity. But it is tragic in time.

So dear reader, do not delay

your gifts and your work in this world are critical and vital importance. And thank you for sharing them with us.

Sending you all the love in the world. Nice little chime in the recording here sending you all the love in the world. Bless you, and I love you. Looking forward to see you soon


25 May 2023

This morning Lin suggested we swap rooms in our house.
Her room is nicer for me and mine better for her.
We have considered the change a few times over the years that we have been here.

On May 10th 2023, I put the final lock on my shelves to bolt them to the wall so they won’t fall in an earthquake.

How interesting that just 15 days later Lin comes up with the idea to change rooms, just after I finalized my last shelf to the wall…

02 May 2023, 12:16

2170 Why is this book called Slow Down?

https://otter.ai/u/DmZwfg4ZUQgQkUPoMAJupAhccdc

How did this book get its name? I came to Japan in 2003 On leaving Texas on Collins birthday and

before I came to Japan, though I decided I should see my own country first and drove I think 5000 miles from Texas basically through Arkansas, Louisiana. Can turkey or watches First Tennessee, Kentucky for Jigna West Virginia. Up and over Ohio, Illinois Missouri, Oklahoma, back down in Texas. And then from Texas to out west to New Mexico, Arizona, California. Or again and then back down same same country or same states, California, Arizona, New Mexico and back. I was in a huge rush and I had no money and so it didn’t really get my Santa self a chance to chill out. I saw hot springs in Arkansas and it was okay. But I for example did not go to Sandusky, Ohio. Park I drove right by Cedar Point and didn’t go it was closed. But why didn’t I chill out for a day? Why didn’t I just park at the gate you know I I didn’t really have the resources or hadn’t really planned and it was all kind of go by you trying to get to the next location I did stay a few places and you know keep it PG here. And

those were just things that happen to be possible places that that we’re welcoming people who are welcoming and I’m forever grateful

I wasn’t welcoming to myself. I didn’t have my I didn’t have enough resources. I stopped by Maggie’s mom’s house just because I know Maggie, my best friend from university. I knew her very well. I knew of her mom. Very well, had never met her mom. And I basically showed up and had to borrow money from her to fix my bicycle, which had been damaged with a car bumping me from behind bent the wheel vent the disc brake was like $100 worth of damage because a disc brake itself was like 80 bucks or something to replace it her mom called the bike shop and say how much is it to fix a wheel and they said $20 She didn’t know to ask about the disc brake as well. So she called her daughter like, Hey, this guy stole money from me just letting you know. Hard you know he was so I don’t know what she said. But yeah, it’s really something that troubles well. I felt bad when I realized what had happened. And foolish they hadn’t. There’s so many different ways to look at it. I didn’t have the money. And here’s the point kind of I assumed she would have the money and that was a poor assumption. Out of poor not but it was potentially not correct. A presumptuous assumption.

So I want to expand this chapter a bit more. But ironically, I have a call in a few minutes and

yeah, I’d like to have a copy of the call coming up because we’re gonna share some stories. I wonder if we can use Zoom

so there you have it. This time the book is titled slow down because I was in a rush to drive around the US. And then when I got into Japan peace boat was amazing, but like kind of rushing around again. Not enough money. And that’s my fault, not piece boats fault. And then I rode my bicycle around Japan slowed down a little bit. But still it was fast and furious and broke my shoulder

then I walked across Japan

depends on who you talk to but like bicycling or walking. Those are about the right speed. Human speeds these human powered speeds and yeah, maybe this chapter is about that. Not using resources to go faster. But using your own inner power to go the speed that is best for you. I’m guessing it’s a lot slower than driving car or airplane rocket ship. It allows me to control my data shy

mom say goodbye to her daughter. Yeah, so

having the control or insight or the ability to stop in a moment’s notice when God speaks to me, maybe that’s the point here. To be able to slow down and hear higher power. Take time to look at a flower or pet my cat Jenny whose little bell I hear right now. Just really being really being present in the moment. That’s the meaning of this book title. Thank you for reading. Talk to you soon. Have a great day. Be well

01 May 2023, 12:12

2155 Eros and Thanatos

https://otter.ai/u/wK8e6whTMxefyqWZRE1T1n57z2w

I have been doing monthly check ins with my friend in Hawaii, Robert golden for a few years now at least two years. I think it may have just been it was pre pandemic actually as well. So anyway, today is it’s 8:34am on May 1, Monday. May 1 2023. Oh no, it broke the name it really changed it. E R. O S. So, we’ve been doing these check ins and today. During one of his stories, Robert introduced these two words and arrows, he said is the flow of love and Thanatos is the flow of death. I suddenly had a little vision of a chapter of this book as a result of that I never thought about the flow of death. I guess it could be perhaps articulated as a fire. Fire consumes and kills and then gives life and so I had this vision that we come down to the point of, of God and the language breaks down but what I call the E P P. ever present present is where arrows and Thanatos are merged or the same or somehow equivalent. We can’t have one without the other. And yeah, just really seen how at the micro level they can’t be distinguished. And so maybe it’s like this concept of the far left and the far right being the opposite ends of a horseshoe. The they end up being basically the same. And so, we have maybe that kind of a analogy would fit that the flow of life and the flow of death. I said love before I actually look it up are one and the same when you get far enough to the to the periphery. So I wanted to add a little chapter around that and like my ideas of what is good and bad. Are you know not pointless, but they’re hard to distinguish when we get down to the far ends of the spectrum. And just having this sense of slowing down to bring my title back into the to this piece, slowing down so that we can experience each microsecond of life one one bit at a time. And really dissolving into the flow of life and time. And this is where we have experiences of athletes get into the zone or into the flow state and just being really, really present and discovering that it’s all one in the same from different perspectives. Yeah, so that’s my little topic about Eros and Thantos. Thanks for listening and talk to you soon. γ˜γ‚ƒγ­γƒΌ. Bye bye

28 Apr 2023, 08:36

synchronicities

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It is 4:42am As I write this on Friday, April 28 2023.

I am waking up. Well, I was up at 4am with a realization that I want to include recent synchronicities and a photograph of a recent page in book 23 of my journal. The story is that I was in your Yogi park with my basically Ultimate Frisbee plus picnic community. On a Sunday, actually, it was this past Sunday so you can work out the date everyone in the group went to the nearby Pride Parade. And I literally said I’m not going to go and I don’t know why. Then I sat down to write in my journal and hadn’t gotten past about three or four lines of basically, what I always write these days is dear god thank you for and I go into a litany of gratitude. And I heard someone call my name and it was my friend Nidhi. And I was like, Oh, this is why I didn’t go to the Pride festival. So nobody said down with me for a while and introduced her friend. And we were just having a chat. And things were really beautiful and sweet. And just a lot of gratitude in the moment

and what’s really amazing to me right now, is that okay, I remember the order. So she and her friend came up. And you know, hello, hello. And I brought my tarp over and we sat down the tarp. And we were doing small chitchat, and then her friend left and I got to just chill out with just me and he told her about the Cuddle Party events actually told them both about Cuddle Party and I lay down to basically relax in the sun and wanted to to connect physically so I just held that his hand and just listening to her recent stories. is a really beautiful connection. My friend Mike came back after I texted the line group, and was like, Oh, hey, done. Now I know why I didn’t go. And I don’t know if he got that but he came back and we were all talking a bit. And while they were talking, I noticed a guy cross away plane or throwing frisbee with his friend and throwing his disc very well like forehand and backhand and I was like, Oh, that’s interesting. So said, Hey, Mike, that guy can throw. And he’s like, over there. And I was like, No. And then the D was like, yeah, go over there. So we both or I went over first. We both went over and started playing disc. And nobody left after a while. And we ended up creating another quick game of ultimate with some other people who were in picnic blankets around and there was a point that like, threw the disk to me and I caught it. I had to go in between two picnic blankets to catch it. And basically, we 98% of the time we can throw well enough and we never hit anybody but there are there are times that people have gotten interrupted by the Frisbee, hitting their blankets or whatever. And this was a case of I went in between blanket standing up and caught the disc and it was all fine. And the people in front of me or like and I said I’m sorry and the person behind them or behind me said oh yeah, me too. And I also greeted her I said thank you and sorry. And we continued playing. Then after the game ended i We packed up was heading out and sat down. Well, sorry I jumped a bit. I talked to the woman who was sitting behind me as I caught that Frisbee. And she invited me to sit down. So I did and I felt really blessed. I’m not sure how to transition to this story but basically within 30 minutes she was crying telling me how she had been like locked herself in her room for the past couple of months basically after losing her job and being really depressed about life etc. And I basically just hugging her and said, Thank you for coming outside. You and we had a nice talk for easily 30 minutes. But the main point of the story is that through all these different connections and continually trying to do the right thing. This is my version of the bracelets. Today, we had the phrase like what would Jesus do? And I really like tuning in each moment regularly. How How may I serve you higher power a god what can I do? And so the examples like don’t go to the pride parade that oh, here’s Nidhi go go play Frisbee. No. Okay. So frisbee was fine. I don’t think it’ll register on their lives very much, but being there I met this woman on the blanket. And I think it will register in her life after sitting down with her, but I wouldn’t likely have done that. Had that frisbee not gone to the to that corner. Of the field of our field. And in also just the little things and just really appreciating the synchronicities and gratitude for the chance to to support another human being on this journey and really encouraging you, dear reader just to sit. Think about recent positive things that have happened in your life. If you’re reading this book I imagine you’re on the right track. I’ve been putting this book together since gosh, I guess it would be since late 2021 ages in internet time. And it’s okay. We’re just putting a bow together. So if you want to meditate, think you should meditate forget to meditate. Just come back to it. It becomes a continuous meditation Dear god, what’s the next right move? And then get caught up in the mind and forget about it and oh yeah. Ask again. Ask again. At 4am I woke up with the intention to relay this story into my book and got a bit sidetracked with email and I start at around 445 I’ve been reading this into a voice transcription thing

received an email in about 2015 from my friend who I’ll call David I’m laughing now. Because that’s his name. And he gave us his Ayahuasca trip report. I say us I mean he a few guys from the Tokyo men’s group at that point. And in later emails, he said the email was meant just for us three, but I’m going to relay one line that he said which has really stuck with me actually two lines. The first line was the spirit world is real. Full stop. And the other line which I can’t find right now is maybe a false memory but saying he’s been taking more time to enjoy the small moments. For example, in my example is like petting our cat Jenny. Last night on the way to bed, it was about 11pm and Jenny was sitting outside my basically the bedroom when I came back from the shower and stuff and so I just sat down with Jenny and pet her and tell him let her know she’s like purring and you have claiming me as her property by rubbing her head on my hands and then just made the intention to pet her until she was done until she walked away. It took about five minutes totally fine without like oh cat I need to go to bed blah blah blah. None of that. Just be here with Jenny. And I knew she would get her Phil after a while and then came into bed. Basically slept five hours and was like being 4am I’m awake. I need to relate the story into my book. As of this moment, it’s 4:56am on Friday, April 28 2023. And I have a call in one hour and I could probably get this copied over to my journal in that amount. of time. But first I’m going to simply sit here and meditate and ask God what’s the next right step?

And I’m letting this recording go on. Until then. Because I paid for like 4000 minutes per month.

Just sitting here now Jenny is on the bed and petting her

feeling a little bit cold so I’m gonna go put on my shirt

and slept in underwear only less than

one thing I don’t know if that was the other thing Okay, here we go. So last year what was like early 2022 Oh, we’re coming up on my oops that was my glasses.

Last year in 2022 I participated in Facebook. Well, not Facebook. Okay, I’m gonna get down to the important bits

she’ll tell you what’s important

okay, it’s open

for a long time I’ve been plagued with this. Like idea of creating my own business. Just one second.

Okay, to unplug my earplugs or your phone. I’m still using a wired headset. I’m an old man. What’s going to do? What am I going to do? So I met what’s her name? Ashley woman it goes by Ashley Moon through this. Like I forgot where we found it. But basically some kind of a challenge to put together a workshop. Oh, it was probably through. Oh gosh, I don’t remember anyway. We put together a workshop and hers was related to Clean up, clean up your inner life and I think it had the key word related to Asha Akashic records and this is also something that is interesting for me. So I attended her workshop and through that joined her community and the time zones were were messy but She’s based in California. It was through Ashley that I learned about the 12 step program under earners anonymous. Which is exactly like designed for like I it fits me exactly. was to put it that way. And when Yes, so yes, it is during that same conversation was actually a podcast. I might find the podcast I hate don’t even Yeah, blah, blah, blah. So she mentioned under earners anonymous. Doing a podcast with a woman who was also talking about tithing and it was like how to get your correct money mindset. And so she’s talking about tithing and saying that tithing is a way of telling higher power, what I think is important. And I was like oh, so what’s new, basically voting with your wallet and your voting to higher power, and you know, what’s worthy of support? And I was like, Oh, that makes sense. And then I don’t know if she said this part Exactly. But tithing tells me or tells you, if it’s all one, but it’s basically saying, I have enough money. enough that I can give some of it away. And this thing is important. So I immediately started tithing. 10% of my income, and I have been since that time and I’ve had instances of like sending out $10 via PayPal, and literally, that day receiving 1000 in cash in your Yogi Park. And just was like, oh, that’s that’s interesting. You know, so just enjoying this opening of the my connection to higher power via that podcast. Both tithing and the under, under, under earners anonymous, which is how I got onto this, like, connection with higher power. And so let me just roll this on forward. To the the next little bit that there are a countable number of humans who have ever existed in the sea, let’s say on Earth. And if if we take it for granted that God is infinite, for for the perspective of this universe, for example. Then there’s enough from God to go around for each individual human. It’s like the integers versus the reals to get mathematical. Ai through it with you via damn sight. I’m going to get mathematical one. Yeah, keep it peace. For now.

I’m just smiling. It’s very entertaining to me to think that some of you may well hear this audio i out all of it verbatim into the book. Thank you for listening. You can email me, Rob at Rob nugen.com. And if you quote anything from Pulp Fiction, I’ll be sure to know to to reply. Soon so. Humans are countable, God is infinite. And that’s my mathematical proof. That I can this is from like my friend Marcel who introduced this idea that he said God has, he said, God fiercely loves each one of us. Uniquely, uniquely, and he used the word fiercely in there. But it’s like, oh, yeah, that makes a lot of sense. If I think about it in terms of the integers versus the reals.

Right now I’m standing, come back to my present moment. I’m standing in front of my altar space. Where just as a little Yeah, this is capturing a moment in time. I’ve got on the left a container a cardboard, round cardboard box that contains contained my iris go Cup, which has a large rotatable top to open like a camera lens. It can open up the entire top of the cup, and when it’s closed, it will. It’s waterproof. Waterproof and leak proof and so it can be tossed into a bag it’s a it’s a very cool design. And I I bought two of them one for Lin one for me, haven’t really used them, but they’ve definitely cool design. And so I use the container as a savings like a piggy bank. I cut a hole in the top and I happen to remember I’m curious to check now. That top I believe says May 11. No says May 22. That’s right. I’m just checking right now. Yeah, 22nd of May 22 of May 2022. I can hear that’s money shakin in there. I’ve been putting 100 yen at least per day into this container. And because I have a countable number of 100 yen coins at any given moment I’ve been just stacking the 100 yen coins on top and then putting that like 1000 yen note into the thing and taking the coins back off and blah blah blah. Recycling the coins on my altar here. So on my altar, I have a little this is now definitely not for the book but let’s see. I have my plastic plate that I bought in United States back when I took the training with John and Rhonda gone. Shadow Work facilitator training, basic training I was doing I was aware of like the value of lighting a candle to connect with spirit. What some people call candle magic. And so I bought this plate as a candle holder. And I think I have the date on the bottom of the plate but I wrote much later, but oh no, no, no, no, no, I wrote it on that day, five October 2019. And later I wrote mid 2022 Something something I can’t read it right now. But anyway, so October 5 2019 I bought this plate and I had a candle on it. And I just wanted to bless the universe, my universe at that time with the we weren’t living in a house with I guess for for other attendees of the training and yeah, so I’ve kept this plate since that time, I have tweaked four corners of the plate by kind of grinding them down with a like, what is it my dremel tool they got from my dad a long time ago. And I hate super glued some dirt to these four corners. So when I put coins on the on these four points, they’ll kind of stay in place because anytime it was they would get bumped it would slide down to the middle of the plate. But for the design, this part is for the book. I have a theory. It is based on God lives in me as me God was God resides in me and what was always that word he used it’s probably a translation anyway. Dwell. I think this is a quote from Stanislav Grof, who was quoting a man who apparently was killed for saying this guy God dwells in me as me. Okay, well if that’s true, then when I make an altar or gussy up something to be for God, it’s also for myself. And so I’ve set up this altar to be visually interesting. To me, as well as the higher power so I have a coin in four corners and then a little have another another dish now on top of the plastic plate because the plastic plate ended up with some burn marks. From candles. And what else was it? Yeah, it was I guess, because to candle and so I have another smaller dish that I got from the blue or cafe blue, near. He’s a mean Tamagawa station. Let’s see how that gets transcribed. It says he’s Amin Tamagawa station. So zoomy is spelled Izu. Am I so near Izumi Tamagawa to hers, under actuate. That station there’s a cafe called Cafe blue under the train lines near the station anyway I digress. While there one time there was a workshop put on by a woman whose name I have forgotten. And we basically learned a technique for repairing old pottery that had become chipped and actually beautifying it so we basically put some more paste that dries out and then glue no non glue paint that paste with a gold paint. And so then the gold paint, kind of both highlights and augments the crack and so makes the cracks become beautiful. And so I have this little dish that has a couple of painted bits on it that I’ve been using to hold a candle that I light each day and then rotate the coins around the one coin is at the front of the candle take that coin put it onto the cardboard container to be saved. Move a coin from the front left to the middle from the back right to the front left. And then pull the coin from the like. Altar around the plate into the back write, for example. And then the next day do the other two coins. So the idea is that the coins get to hang out near the candle each day on both sides of it and it’s just a little process and I’ve got a load of little candle holders from a certain brand shop is from Sweden. And thing is from Sweden and I’ve been trying to recycle these little tins and I’m considering using them as parts for my panda ear plant and I have I have some soil that

I bought at 100 yen shop after talking to a woman had owner of a plant store like how to take care of this plant. The panda ear plant named Alex who I have received from Connor who lives next to so ness and Chica Saki. So that was 11 years ago now. And oh gosh, what’s the point of this story now? Now I know why all men considered rambling bla bla bla. So the point of this story is to slow down I have an altar with coins. I’ve been saving 100 yen per day about to cough

got some water I’ve been saving 100 gallons per day since 22nd of May 2022.

And that was 11 days after finding the under earners anonymous program just was probably the day that I heard it on that podcast by Ashley. So my intention on May 22 2023, which is now in about three weeks from now. What it looks like

I haven’t consumed water this morning. So let’s go for it. So Ashley would talk about seed trunk tree so it’s.

Basically Ashley would talk about taking care of the self by starting with the seed. What does the physical body need? Right now? In this case, water once the physical body has been taken care of we can think about the local environment. Like I’m standing in my room which including the altar is quite chaotic. I’ve got I was I was I was enumerating the things on my altar. So let me finish that 24689 1011 1213 1419 20 There’s 20 empty dishes from different from candles that I’ve been buying. Lin has been actually buying them but from IKEA and I have been taking the candles out of the tins so that it’s a clean of wax. They have a little bit of glue in the bottom that folds and holds them in taking the label off of there. And then I intend to use the tins to plant plants. That’s an awesome room. I intend to use the tins to plant some plants. And then I’m going to give them to my friend Lance. I don’t currently have any friends named Lance, but I do have some plants. So I want to create little planters out of some of these candle tins. Some of the 10s have dates on them, because each time I get a new package of them I’ve been putting right choosing one and putting the date on it. I have as far back as October. So right yes as mid October 2022 on one of them that have not yet burned. I had to dip into my backlog. of data tins and I used looks like February 2023 and January 2023. So right now I’m unloading and little pack of candles that Lynn got from IKEA and expressing my gratitude to her for the support of my altar and I so I told you a number of TINs that I had and I just added 24 candles to the lower shelf. And let me just do it in real time here. Selecting a candle taking it out of its 10 to the tin is basically clean. For fun been removing the little blob of candle wax not candle wax of glue which is the same color as the handle wax but does not melt at that same temperature feeling the physicality of the candle to represent the connection to the physical world. Feeling the oils from the candle and from my skin combined it’s now 5:24am On Friday, April 20 the world as a 28 I think the oils representing the etheric world and so tune in and drop down God thank you for this opportunity to share

thank you for guiding me God

Please, God, thank you for blessing, Ashley blessing Lynn blessing the listener of this audio now.

Slowing down

helps me stay in tune with you God thank you God for allowing me to slow down

please help me to hear your guidance for me God thank you for helping me serve the world around me via your will. Thank you for increasing my capacity to shine your light in the world God this is actually written on the altar was a thing behind the altar of God come up please increase my capacity to shine your light. God thank you for allowing me to serve thank you for guiding me in a good way

today is a beautiful day

my life is filled with abundance

only good things lie ahead of me

God thank you for residing inside me, guiding me per your will.

may I serve you God you are my employer. You are my friend. You are my lover. You are my brother. You are my mom or my dad you’re my sister you’re my light

thank you for guiding me

thank you for guiding me. So that was a bit of a long version kind of for this recording now but the intention is is the same each time that I’m here to serve and I’m grateful for God’s guidance in my in my life. actually talked about waking up snow actually talked about the taking care of the seed first being the physical body. And so my version of that is like, for example, go to the restroom. And so I woke up this morning and say oh, I need to pee and so by listening to my body I’m it’s it’s like that’s the next right thing for me to do is to go pee and it’s like this is God’s will for me. My current life purpose is literally to pee and once I’ve peed I can do the next right thing. Oh, drink some water. And so I woke up this morning at 4am gotta go pee in a write in my book, which I’m doing now. blahdy blahdy blah And this whole thing. Just really kind of hanging out with higher power and expressing gratitude for the guidance in my life

I have a call with my friend Klaus in 30 minutes. And I my intention right now is to not keep this recording going at that time because basically we are both in the counseling industry. He’s literally a counselor. I think even a psychologist and maybe psychiatrist I’m not sure. But we hold space for each other. So I’m not going to record this not gonna record that with this or anything else that matter and lighting the stick of incense right now and holding it with the What’s this called? Like? Reverse tweezers they force this forceps they stay closed. Oh is the word force and forceps. The forces closed had to squeeze them to open them basically. So I got these to work with my marble track, which is marble track three behind me. And there’s no holding incense on my altar. And okay, here’s the final bit I’ll close this this chapter. I have the cardboard to from May 22 that has had at least 100 yen per day go into it. So 100 times 360 So it’ll have your 36,000 yen minimum in it on May 22 2023. Counting right now I have three 500 yen coins 246-810-1214 1618 1900 yen coins plus here right now 246-810-1213 So what is that 3200 yen coins and so having just listed out those that’s what’s on my altar right now and then there’s there’s also some the incense sticks and some what’s the word? Oils essential oils in little glass capsules. I’m placing back on to the altar 100 Getting coins that I took off of the cardboard container and put them in putting them in the back of the lines and I’ll slowly bring them to the front and Miss running this whole little cycle and putting off taking off my altar. The two Oh no, I’ll leave these here. I’ll take from my wallet for 1000 note and put that into the cardboard container. And so yeah, life keeps rolling on. My intention today is to okay right now. I’m going to let this transcription get finished in all create an entry for this on my site. I’ve just tucked the 1000 yen note into the cardboard container. There’s no 700 yen on top including a 500 Yuan coin. So yeah, if you’ve made it to the end of this there’s no special prize except for you. You are here. As you God dwells in you as you. God dwells in me as me. And at the end of the proverbial day, we are all one. I think rom das said we are all just carrying each other home thank you for helping me move towards the light and I’m speaking to you listener as part of God. Thank you for helping me move toward God’s light

it’s with the intention of supporting this book and there before the reader supported myself Okay, I’m gonna go jump on the call with Klaus and little bit and have this transcription added to the book. It said Rob nugen.com/he In slash books slash slow hyphen down. I’m curious if that URL exists into the future. I it’s my intention that it will as long as I’m alive. Rob nugen.com/en For English slash books slash slow hyphen, down. How do you spell underscore? U nd er underscore SC o r e hyphen is a single character. Okay. Talk to you later. Be well. Have a beautiful day. Create a beautiful day with your gratitude

20 Feb 2023, 18:45

2130 Wake Up While Dreaming

I bought Beyond Dreaming, and have been slowly going through it.

I woke up during a dream a couple nights ago:

I was driving my pickup truck and went into a parking lot, looking for the source of some good music. I drove up to another pickup truck, and parked so they were pointing head to head. A black man got out of the other pickup truck and I noticed both trucks were white. He silently offered me a drink in an unopened plastic bottle. I accepted the bottle and watched him open his bottle, take a drink and then splash some drink out of the bottle at the ground in front of me. I turned around and two more of his friends had arrived, silently appraising the scene.

I asked if they spoke English and they laughed a little. One woman said I should watch myself as they all walked away.

I got back into my pickup truck and backed out of the parking lot, somehow able to turn around without bumping other cars. There was a chain blocking my way out and I realized I could drive slowly through it because I was in non physical reality(*). I drove toward the chain then turned left in front of it so as to not break anything. I drove into a tunnel underpass and realized it would be faster to fly, so I went to a restaurant where people were waiting in line and ascended the stairs and went out a door on the roof of the tower which had a camera mounted on top to do weather reports. I went to the edge of the building in front of the camera and jumped off the building and flew with the intention of finding the greenery of central Tokyo. I woke up while flying and looked at the view on my phone which showed my body sleeping in front of the camera for the past 10 hours and 312 people viewing the livestream. I watched myself wake up via the livestream and walked down into my living room of the house (we lived in until 1978) thinking wow what a weird dream and then I woke up in this physical reality, did a dream test to confirm I am in physical reality, then wrote this.

(*) While dreaming I often “realize” I can fly or do other things that would not be possible in physical reality… but don’t usually realize I’m dreaming.

From Gene’s book Beyond Dreaming:

The primary purpose of this book is for others
to learn how to awaken consciousness

From my Book, SLOW DOWN

One of the ways to wake up is to pay attention to little
details.

04 Feb 2023, 10:01

0111 - Vipassana memories after 10 days and 15 years

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Doing the meditation was in a way harder than riding my bicycle out to Kyoto to do it. My brain was like, chaos who could run it around like doing jumping jacks the whole time. I just couldn’t stay awake. In the morning. I got grumbled and by one of the the volunteer staff when I didn’t wake up in the morning,

Yeah, it was tough. It got harder and harder and harder for the nine days. And then on the last day than I was suddenly like, like “oh, yeah” and I suddenly got it. And I understood the value.

And then on the 10th day, we were able to speak again. I took a moment to just cry that I had completed it or out of relief. I didn’t really want to talk to anyone, to be honest. But we did talk a bit and that through those conversations, I actually got so number of the I told the guy that didn’t have a job and he mentioned that I could contact a man named Hide, and volunteer as a lab rat in Kagoshima, which I ended up doing a few times and made a bit over 2 million yen. Overall, that was nice, but main point being that the person was quite challenging. And at the end, I determined two things.

One that I would do it again, I haven’t yet and I determined like a like what I would tell people who were you asking about the past and it’s like is that if you think you can’t do it, you don’t want to do it, then definitely don’t do it. However, if you think you’d be interested and it might be a good thing, then definitely definitely do it. As challenging as it is. It it’s like quite a very few people like on the fence. Here there’s like if it could be good or not, you know, maybe if it’s a case that someone has a like a min. A mentor, like what’s the word, like mental condition that needs monitoring by a doctor or what have you. I mean, I don’t know. But beyond those types of issues, just let the curiosity be the judge if you’re curious, you think it’d be cool, definitely do it. Otherwise definitely don’t do it. It was really, really challenging. I’m glad I did. And it really helped with the next part of my TJ bike story.