Wow I just found pics from about 1999 when Astros Field was under construction.

Funny how small the pictures are compared to a “full res” picture today. At least they are in color!!

HI Wende!

Max, Yuma, Hiro, Yuna, and Emico all joined me for the walk around the park and we ended at 13:15 because we had to go around the outer loop.

We walked quite slowly and stopped a couple of times to check how people were doing and what people noticed so I think it was a good balance of walking and checking.

Somehow I think there could be some more introduction or more explanation but it also just didn’t really come up so I didn’t worry about it.

I just went over a general safety piece and had people to take care of themselves so it should be all good.

We got some pictures at the end and then Toko and Nithilim joined us and walked with us toward Shibuya and we went to the new Miyashita Park area for some food on the top floor of the place.

Chilling inside everyone had a good time and Emico was able to tell everyone about her workshop and then I put on my contacts and walked over to Shibuya crossing and by the time I was getting set up everyone had walked over there so I was really happy to see them.

Great day offering eye gazing in Shibuya today.

The big takeaway was that I didn’t have to prepare too much or go out of my way to be stressed about preparation. I just had fun with preparation and did what made sense and did just the right amount so I had everything I needed and didn’t have too much I mean it was very close to exactly what I needed during the thing and I’m really glad about that.

I had eye gazing with all of my friends who were there and then I lost count for a while but I ultimately came up with 11 people who stopped to do eye casing with me while I was standing there.

There were probably about 11 other people who made eye contact in passing but I didn’t count those people because they didn’t stop and settle into the moment of eye contact with me.

At the end I met a man named Christian (sp) who told me he does healing with his family in terms of prayer so he did a prayer for me in Jesus’s name and I thanked him and we talked about religion a little bit. I told him clearly that I recognize each religion has some truth but no religion is the truth. He kept listening so I went on to give the example of satanism as a path toward God via self-service.

We also talked about how the current Corona and covid situation has got people all hyped up and scared and fearful, which is definitely not useful in terms of what I believe. He said basically the bible says “have no fear” and “trust in God” which is exactly opposite of what most people are apparently doing.

There’s a parable of blind men touching an elephant and determining that an elephant is different things based on what part of the elephant they were feeling.

Similarly, we are all blindly experiencing life, each in a different way, and thereby believing into reality a different world for each of us.

Because we only experience the part of our world that we experience, we tend to believe “this is everything” even though it’s not even an appreciable fraction of the whole.

Because our limited perception gives us an imperfect picture, we similarly perceive apparent imperfections in ourselves.

This can cause us to judge ourselves as bad or incomplete because of these (incorrect / incomplete) perceptions of imperfections.

Upon accepting (our incomplete perception of) ourselves, even though we seem to think we are imperfect, we begin a process of loving ourselves and loving what is.

Accepting all parts of ourselves as we are, we experience unconditional love from within. This allows the previously-considered “imperfect” parts of us to be recognized as perfect within the world in which we exist.

Recognizing all parts of ourselves to have value, we begin to allow our parts to express their value in the world that we’re experiencing/creating with our perception.

The expression of ourselves doesn’t have to be overt or even perceived by others, but we can gain intrinsic value by allowing all parts of ourselves to be involved in the experience of living in our world.

A recent overt example of this in my life was allowing the wacky idea of walking across Japan to manifest itself in reality.

A recent private example of this in my life is judging my mother-in-law as a burden in my life. This judgement allows me to realize that I have a judgey part of myself. This judgy part of me hangs out in my head and often accuses me of being imperfect.

Accepting that I have a judgey part of myself can allow me to love that aspect of myself and give it a more useful role. e.g. Recognizing the value of having a “part of me that can make judgment” gives me the option of using said part to make quality decisions in my life.

What parts of you might you have trouble accepting in your life?

How might your experience of life be different if you accept those parts of you and love them for the value they bring into your life?

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Who you are is why you are here.

I just got an email from Lisa at Thought Leaders Business School.

Who you are is why you are here.

This is such a perfect example of the Why of my walk.

Fully expressing who you are at the deepest levels makes the world a better place.

Deeper than the chatty flighty fighty brain chatter level, who you really are..

..is why you are here.

If you are ready to discover who you really are, email me, call me, find me and let’s get started.

Thank you for exploring this topic. And feeling the energy and recognizing this very deep seated desire for peace of mind.

Breathe into this concept of peace of mind, which may feel like just an idea or some kind of faraway state.

Just allow it to be anywhere it is. No need to change.

Simply being in the moment, recognizing the reflections we see in the world, are reflections from inside of us.

So, step stepping into this peace of mind can allow our reactions to the world to also have peace.

Simply notice the reaction. Notice what it’s trying to gain.

And recognize it’s also seeking this peace of mind.

Notice how both our desires and reactions may be pointing toward peace of mind.

Feeling the peace in your body, allow your mind to relax and sink down into your body.

Fully experiencing the body and its peace.

As your body sinks into the peace, allow it to become peace of mind.

Notice here noticing your breaths, we’ll begin to come back into our shared space.

Allowing the peace in your body to bring peace of mind.

Remembering you can access this anytime you like

Expressing gratitude for your body. Gratitude for your breath and gratitude for the peace. Allow yourself to come back into our shared space.

My pleasure thank you.

Today we explored a new way to acknowledge doubts that come up. This process gets to the bottom of the purpose of doubt in your life and how to move forward without doubts.

(image credit: https://inventwithwords.com/2018/10/06/as-you-near-project-completion-the-voices-creep-in/)

As we get started, let's take a moment to get present in this space.

Simply noticing your breathing, noticing your body.

Recognizing your body takes care of itself.

You can just enjoy living in the body in this moment.

Enjoy experiencing this moment without concern for the future or
past. Just be here now.

Noticing any feelings or emotion in your body, simply allow them to
be.

Notice the sense of calm and peace in the background, allowing that to
fill your experience, this ever present present moment.

Not waiting for the next; simply here, allowing the moment of now to
open up.

as we begin to come to a shared space, allow this feeling of calm to
continue the silence to continue even as you're listening even as
you're speaking,

still being in the silence.

At your own pace, allow yourself to come back into our shared space.

Welcome.

(Welcome new members and ground rules for live workshop)

Last week, our topic was letting go. And we allowed things to come in
as we let go of energies that no longer serve us. And for those who
We're here last week. I wonder how that was for you during the week?
And if you'd like to speak about that you're welcome. Did you allow
anything to go or notice anything coming in that serves you better?


settling down into today, I forgot to mention, if you have a notebook,
pen and paper notebook or something handy, then that will be
good. We'll have an option to make lists or make notes for
yourself. And the first bit is about the doubts and fears or the what
ifs that that habitually come up for you. So, just an invitation to
brainstorm doubts and fears that frequently come up for you. You don't
have to share these with the group. They're simply for your personal
awareness.


Looking over this list, notice the ways you react when the doubts come up.

How does the energy of the doubts affect your movements in your life or in the moment?

Take a moment and to write some of those down as well.

For me, some examples are like overthinking, or procrastinating. over eating...

How do you react when the doubts come up for you?

In my imagination, this second list might be easier to share. If you
want to share any of your reactions to doubts, feel free, or your
doubts themselves. You're welcome.

Nice. Thank you. Thank you all for sharing how your, your body or your
mind reacts to the doubts that come up. I want to use this reaction as
a key, or as a reminder for something that I'll describe in our
meditation process.

Take a moment to get re connected to your body, you may close your
eyes, if that serves you or keep them open. Simply noticing your body
in this moment of relaxation and relative stillness.

And think about or feel the sensations in your body that come up when
there are doubts in your mind. Just imagine having doubts about
something. Or if you have current doubts about something, just
slightly activate those in your mind. And notice your body's
response, or notice your mind's response.

Getting fully into this reaction to the doubts.

It's like an automatic habit that you have had for a long time. This
bodily response, this mental response.  Feeling it, feeling the
response, we're going to add one more habit, as a reminder: to come
back to the present moment.

To breathe, simply notice what's happening in your physical
body. Whether it's noticing the reaction, or noticing the reaction
drop away as soon as it is seen...

Allow the reaction to be a reminder to come back to the present
moment.

Noticing your body, noticing the reaction as it drops away,
allowing it to bring you to the present moment.

So we're going to practice, two more times, same process. Allow some
doubt to come into your body, into your mind. Notice your doubt coming
up. Notice your body's reaction to it, whether you're getting tense or
frozen. Or overthinking. feeling fear, feeling sadness.

Feel it, feel it. And then "ah!" remember. Bringing it back to the
present moment. Then breathe

nice full belly breaths

overlaying this present moment automatically as those sensations come
up in your body,

allowing the sensations of the fear to relax.

Allow them to drift away,
as you are here, mindfully in the present moment,
calmly back in the truth of who you are.

Now, for this third time, we're going to do the same process and then
do a little interview with that part that's causing the reaction.

I'll ask the questions for that part, and then just allow you to write
the answers that come.

So going back into the state of doubt, feel the doubt your body in
your mind not knowing what to do. Wondering if you deserve good
treatment, wondering if you can say it.

Feel that doubt, feel your body's reaction. Feel it, feel it. And then
remember and breathe again.

And in your mind allow this reaction to
have a seat next to you. And we're going to interview this part just
allow the answers to come naturally.

Welcoming that part, that reaction into the chair next to you.

First question, what role do you serve in my life? What's your
intention for me?

Write the answers that come up on this question. What role do you
play? What's your intention for me?

Now, for the second question How long have you been doing this for me?
How long have you been in my life?

Now the third question.

When you are here, how may I address you? What name May I call you?

Take a moment to thank by name. Thank this part for its service. And
we'll move on to the next question.

Next question. What happens to me? If I don't listen to you?

What happens to me if I don't listen to you?

Thanking the part by name again, we'll move to the next question. What
happens to me if I do listen to you?

What happens to me if I do listen to you?

Thanking the part or the answer move to the next question Would you
like a different role in my life?

Would you prefer a different role in my life?

Thanking the part, I have a follow up question would you like to
retire from my life? and have your own life?

Would you like to retire? and have your own life?

Thanking the part to move on to the next question. What's the best way
for us to move forward?

What's the best way for us to move forward?

Thanking the part by name move to the last question. Is there anything
else you would like me to know?

What else would you like me to know?

Thanking the part again. Allow yourself to either reconnect if you
have a new job together or allow the part to move on to their new
life.

Re-settle yourself in your body,

thanking the part by name

Settling smoothly into potential new roles.

And as you're ready, allow yourself to come back into our shared space.

And I'm curious what you learned about this part of you that has given
you the reaction to doubts comes up.. Did you learn something about
yourself or learn about its role? What came up for you? You don't have
to share if you don't want to.


This process can be used multiple times. Thank you for exploring this
under a new way to see the doubts and reactions to them in life.

Learn how to use your subconscious to manifest your desires (sigil magic), and enjoy a meditation allowing new things in to your life.

0:00

Today's concept is letting go. And there's a couple ways we can
practice letting go.

What's coming up as an idea is creating a vision for ourselves in
either a visual image if you if you enjoy sketching things out and
drawing, or it could be a text description like words describing your
optimal situation.

So of those two options, do you have a preference? If it would be
visual or verbal?

Yeah, and we can do both, I mean, in this case, I'll say "create your
vision," you'll be either writing words or drawing the vision.

Hmm? Yes, good, this, drawings will work in this process as well. So
just starting with whatever is most comfortable for you.

Take a moment to get in your mind, a vision of something you want to
create for yourself or to experience for yourself.

Make sure your request is something that is neutral to those around you.

You can say for example, "I receive money."

But do not say, "that one guy will pay me back money."

Or you can say "I receive love." But don't specify who you want to love you.

By keeping it neutral is safe practice.

Trying to change someone's will is a type of black magic. So be sure
you keep your request neutral for the universe, and the people around
you.

And we're going to do a process that allows it to be handled by your
subconscious is one way of saying it.

So starting with the verbal description that you can write, take a
couple minutes to describe the optimal situation that you want to
create for yourself, and it could just be one one small topic.

Take about
a minute or two minutes, write 10 or 20 words that described this
optimal situation.

Any one that you pick now is fine. This process works best if you do
it multiple times and the reason will become clear as we do the
process.

So don't worry too much about choosing the perfect one. Just allow
yourself to choose something that you want to create or experience in
your life. You don't have to share it with us. These can be your own
private desires, whatever they are.

Let me know once you have your phrase written.

Mine came out to 12 words. So 10 to 20 words is probably easy to work with.

And you can you can do this multiple times.

So, once you have your, your phrase your description, we're going to use
the letters of this description to create a symbol that represents
this phrase.

And there are many possible ways that this can be done, I'll go with
one that I learned from one of my teachers to start by removing all of
the vowels in the phrase.

So, leaving the consonants you can just cross out the vowels and then
rewrite the phrase with just just the consonants.

And then any repeated consonants will not get repeated in the new
version.

So removing the vowels, you're writing just the consonants that are
there one time for each consonant in the description.

And then once you have the consonants, kind of extracted will then
create a a symbol, I lost the word [sigil], like a seal.

So for me, I have the letters R, T, N, L, Y and then etcetera, that
I'm going to incorporate these into one symbol using just these
letters.

And they can be upside down or sideways. They can be merged
together. Anything that makes a unique a unique shape, that may be
interesting to look at.

Letters can be backwards or whatever. So I've come up with this,
incorporated all my letters here upside down and backwards and
sideways all merged into one shape.

And these are the consonants that I extracted from my phrase.

And then can refine this, this symbol, kind of melt it down, by
rewriting it until the actual words are out of your memory.

They're gone from your memory and i'ts just just the symbol that
remains

allow this symbol to get more and more symbolic.

And I just looked up the word it's called sigil, S-I-G-I-L that we're
creating.

I've got my sigil down to this shape here.

So the letters are almost not even visible anymore. But the
subconscious remembers.

I'll describe the next part but before doing it, the recommendation
would be to create some more sigils using the same concept until you
don't remember which one is which, but your subconscious remembers.

And creating that break in consciousness as part of the "letting go"
process that we're allowing the, the spirit or the the universal magic
to, to bring this into our awareness or into our lives.

And the next step once you have forgotten completely what the symbol
was for what's the sigils for: get into a highly emotionally highly
charged state.

And one of the most common versions for this is a sexually charged
state, to the point of orgasm in whatever way is best for you, whether
with a person or without, and take one of the sigils and look at it
during your experience of orgasm and let it burn into your mind.

and memorize it and feel it and not remember what it was but just
completely in that moment of, of high emotional energy, positive
emotional energy, charge that sigil into your mind and your memory and
then let it go.

Lose the paper it's done. And that's the process of using the sigil to
allow your your subconscious mind to bring this into your life with
emotional and spiritual connection.

10:30

For the next part of tonight, I wanted to talk about what it means for
you to let go of something and what does it What does it require to
change in your being to let something go?

This is a very broad topic. So whatever answers come up for you are
welcome.

Using what I heard you guys speaking, I wonder if we can do a little
meditation process that might facilitate the letting go.

So, take a moment to settle into your space, using this as a miniature
letting go. Letting go of any tension in your body.

Letting go of your breathing.

Letting go of your mind as it may continue to run or not. Just let
that go. Either way is fine.

Recognizing that the mind may have its own ideas for how to control
things or how to bring things into fruition

and yet, you know from experience that most things are not yours to control.

So just for a moment, allow the mind to drift away.

Just let go of the mind for this moment.

Having already created the vision for what you want to achieve or what
you want to experience.

Allow yourself to trust the process.

Trust that the universe has heard your request.

And the entire universe is in motion toward fulfilling your highest desire.

As creative beings we create with our vision with our intention,

sending the vision out into the universe and allowing it to be
reflected back, effortlessly on our part.

Allowing yourself to allow a new vision into your life,
opening your heart, with the power of spirit within you.

Expand expanding your being to its full potential.

And allowing this answer from the universe into your life, into your
experience.

And as we enjoy this new experience, there will become a next desire
or a next want.

We create an intention or create a vision based on the new desire, the
new want.

visualizing it, and trusting the universe has heard.

Allowing ourselves to grow into the being who is ready for the answer,
ready to allow this new vision into your life.

This is an ongoing cycle, happening effortlessly as we live.

and adjusted exactly to the size we allow ourselves to accept.

Practice allowing yourself to be filled from within by the infinite
spirit fully embodying all of your parts all of your being,

allowing them to be manifest into our lives.

In a moment, we'll be coming back into our shared space.

Recognize this as a miniature version of the same:

visualizing seeing with your physical eyes: the room around you and
the computer screen

allowing the being inside you to grow into that space of eyes
open. Bringing this vision into reality

Allow each vision to be as seemingly as simple.

In the book Course of Miracles, it says there's no order in
miracles. They're all the same size.

If anything came up for you during that exercise, you're welcome to
share if you like.

Digging in to the truth of who we are allows us to fully embody our being. Notice we are animated from within by the breath of life.

I imagine the search could seem complicated, and allowing yourself
to settle within the concept:

I am the one I've been waiting for kind of idea, you know, we are
the ones we've been waiting for. is very supportive idea for me,
it's scary in a way to say "who me? Oh, no!"  kind of, kind of
thing.

And it has really turned out to be true in a lot of ways, for me
over many different aspects of my life.

So the, the search continues for, as I hear you saying, and the
invitation to allow the search to come from within with your own
superpowers and your own gifts to the world.

And certainly keep listening to the great masters and the the
people who have recognized the truth of who we are in the, in this
lifetime.

What's coming up, for me is the the concept of being grounded
within the search itself and within the work of moving forward in
the processes.

A lot of things can come up, and if, if we stay grounded, then
whatever comes up is simply something that we notice on the on
the, like, outside of us, so to speak, or within the hologram of
the game that we're playing.

We can remain grounded in the self for the duration of however
long that lasts within within the vision of our life there.

So just to get started, May I invite you to feel this physical
body and feel it sitting relaxed in your chair or in in your seat.
Just fully embodying your body.

Noticing it has been breathing this entire time. That breathing is
there to serve you as you share your gifts with the world.

Allowing the entire space around you to support your being

noticing your breathing.

noticing the thoughts that may come up, just allow them to go by

allow this present moment to expand.

As Alan Watts has said many times the moment on our clock is
measured with a hair line, second hand and we We tend to think of
this present moment as a miniscule, tiny fraction. My invitation
to you is to allow this moment of Now to begin to open.

So it's actually beyond time, this moment of now,

Allow your sense of this moment, the sense of your being to gently
expand.

expanding in space,

expanding in time,

recognizing it's all the same stuff, this space time.

So the projection that we see around us, appears to be external to
our bodies and our experience.

Actually, we include it.

Notice what it's like to literally include time and space within
your being.

From this perspective, all of timespace becomes very small as we
see from a grander perspective.

Imagine coming back, focusing more on your physical body.

Whereas you include all of time space, your physical body is
included within space time.

Allow yourself to bring your focus back to your physical body gently.

Slowly coming in to your physical body, noticing the difference in
perspective of the physical body being inside space time versus
our true nature including space time itself.

As you re embody your physical body in this moment,

notice some of the thoughts and ideas that you've had planned for
yourself been wanting to do, whether they're well fleshed out, or
still exploring and moving forward.

Take a moment to write down some of those that come to mind. Some
ideas you've wanted to do.

You may have one big one that's very clear, or few options like a
to do list. Anything is okay.

(pause for writing)

Allow your allow your list to come to completion and find one
topic to focus on for a little discussion.

The idea of digging into this one topic. What are some things that
you may have to let go of in your life in order to fully embrace
this topic? To fully bring it into your life?

(fifteen minute discussion of above question)

And simply the the practice of meditating, whether it's 15 minutes
per day, or one minute, 15 times per day,

This concept of meditation is simply being with myself for this
moment.

And it doesn't have to take us a long or a whole elaborate
arrangement. But even in any moment, just be with yourself, and
then forget about it.

"Ah, that's right."

And just be with this help at any time. It's like a continuous
meditation. Anytime you forget, just bring your focus back. And
notice. And it's a continuous process.

(discussion time)

Having the idea of your your list or the item on your list there,

noticing the parts of you who are already connected with this item.

parts of you that are already connected or optimized.

breathing into those parts of your optimal self.

These are your superpowers we've talked about before.

We have many superpowers. We breathe into the ones that are
aligned with this particular topic. Those parts of us that are
already well established. Simple for us to do.

Breathe into those and allow their strength to expand within your
being bringing online other parts of yourself that may not have
had as much practice

Allow your well developed parts to offer energy to the parts that
may desire more energy

as the infinite power of the universe animates.

Allow this animation to expand to all parts of your being.

Blessing all parts of yourself

activating all parts of yourself

really digging in to the truth of who you are.

An infinite being having this experience within a physical body.

The ego has ideas about what needs to be fixed, what needs to be
corrected.

Recognize everything is perfect.

Everything is correct.

Simply allowing yourself to consciously feel the being.

This being is your groundedness is your ultimate anchor.

Let your consciousness shine like a light within your being

and your light shining out for other people to see.

As you settle fully into your being

allowing your being to effortlessly express itself within the world.

Allowing your work to energize you

feeling excited as you in body more and more of your being

continuing to take moments to notice your being allow this to
become a regular practice. Oh yeah, here I am.

In a moment, we will come back into a speaking mode. Just feel
this experience now in this moment as your awareness is failing
more of your being

As you are aware of more of your being.

Allow yourself to take a mental note or a mental snapshot of this
feeling. So you can refer to it at any point

teller becomes second nature to simply be in full embodiment.

allowing a few more breaths at your own pace.

Simply notice your body breathing itself.

As you notice your Being being itself

Reinforce this mental snapshot of this experience. Keep it in your
proverbial back pocket. So you can call it up at any time

begin to re embody the physical bodies

I welcome you back into this shared space.

(The above transcript was extracted from our live interactive Weekly Alignment on Thursday night.)

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