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dream anger and disappointment

I was looking through a tube at my Mongolian friend B and she came through it. I could see her face and she came through when we had a sweet kiss by licking tongues and I realized I shouldn't do this and then I realize it was a dream but it was gone.

Then I was on a small train with a few cars correctly on the rails and a girl on the very front of her family was on a different train that was not just put onto the rails correctly and I said we should go help her but someone on my train was like no fuck them + then the girl I pointed out that the girl could see her family having trouble. So I stopped our train and got out and it was my old van with Mom driving. I had to carefully get out of the right hand side of the van with very little room to walk as it was hovering over some a steep drop into the water in just a few rocks to walk on the edge of the road and I told the girl to be careful as I I held her in my arms to keep her from falling and I walked around the front of the van and I told my mom to back up the van about on foot and then I was able to keith through past the van. It was in a tunnel and I couldn't get in but then I got into the tunnel and was walking the girl toward her family and her family's train and she turned into a duck while I was walking and she was on her back looking up and I realized that she might want to see where she's going. So I held her up kind of upright in my arm so she could see and then when I got to somewhere she was a very tiny little duck and I put her on the head of a duck that was in front of a little house model house. Something + I put the little duck on the head of the ceramic duck at the house and a Japanese or some Chinese man was saying oh you've defiled the shrine and oh my God and I was so suddenly pissed off and I started to yell. It's like fake mockingly apologize in asinine Japanese like 全然申し上げございません。全然わからなかった。だからごめんね。 And I just bullied him into a cowering corner and walked back toward the small duck area and he came up again behind me like wanting to fight and I grabbed the whole table with one hand and whipped it around at him. Hit him full bodily and he collapsed backwards and I then walked away toward something and he came up behind me with a knife or some kind of apparently sharp utensil and he started coming at me in English + I disarmed him. I threw the knife into the water + then he started speaking to me in English saying that he was very disappointed in me and I held both of his hands and I said welcome brother and was really holding space for him and grateful that he would communicate with me in English and I realized that I had acted like an asshole and I just started to cry and was so grateful for him to help me see my asshole side.

I did Hoʻoponopono and then wrote this dream.

I think I might try to have AI (Plandex) create a dream logging tool for me. I'll reach out to the guy who tried to make one a few years ago.

state of my life address

1. Jess and I are house sitting Milo the greyhound in Bateman, a suburb of Perth.
2. I'm the MOS coordinator for the NWTA weekend training coming soon!
3. I enjoyed attending North Perth Integration Group last night. Lloyd drove me there from Bateman. 11 men were in the meeting. One of my mates from 8 years ago was like, "I can't believe I'm seeing you face to face; where did the time go?"
4. We got to see Jennie J while hanging out in Freo (Fremantle) last week.
5. I've been playing with AI, and just got Plandex 2 installed on my Lemur laptop
6. I wrote to the author of a dream journal software (project that got abandoned because it was too complex) because I still want dream journal.
7. I am considering using Plandex 2 to tweak Quick to allow dream entries.
8. Quick is the software that I wrote to replace Quill to work for PHP 8+ and write journal entries to my journal
9. It now also looks up the next word in my backwards story to use as the commit message. https://bitbucket.org/thunderrabbit/robnugen-journal-entries/commits/branch/master (as of now it says "Millenium House was so much fun ...")
10. Jess and I had a nice walk in the park while walking Milo. Then we walked to the local IGA.
11. I've finished more than half of this Australian adventure Q1 2025
12. I liked the manager of Hougoumont Hotel; he was friendly and very positive!
13. I've got AB web server on Ubuntu 22 running PHP 8.1. Almost caught up to latest Ubuntu 24 (I think) and PHP 8.3 Yay!
14. The image server still needs to be upgraded. I gotta talk to Nate about that.
15. This morning I woke up crying from a dream which I just posted from my phone but haven't cleaned up yet.
16. Now it says ("nicely. Millenium House was so much fun ...")
17. Nina killed herself in Thailand. I'm sad she didn't reach out to me, though I also didn't reach out to her, but I did leave her nice notes in her luggage when we met in Nagano.
18. I've been working on my book which was Book One, then a whole monster of four or five parts, but now is Book One again. Almost done coming through it to prepare for professional editor.
19. Tomorrow I'll meet Karen Langston for our weekly book writing accountability call.
20. Tonight, I'm gonna shave, too.
21. I used a ChatGPT I called Dr Defi to write a script to look up the price of SOL every 5 minutes. It's working nicely! Draws a graph and everything.
22. I've been telling people I'm going to start closing up shop in Japan. When I get there though, I dunno how quickly that will happen.
23. I can now edit journal entries on Quick! (^-^)V yayyyyy!