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Design kims site

3:10pm EDT Monday 14 October 2002

After some brainstorming with Steve, I'm sketching out some ideas for Kim's website, so I can finish my web-design-debt to him and quit worrying about it longer.

Thing is, I've got in my head a grand idea of making it really really really awesomely easy for him to update, and I just don't know if I'm smart enough to make it all happen.

Of course I am, but dammmm; this is a good challenge.

5:21pm

no, this is a sucky challenge.

I emailed Kim to see if I could get him to call me here and go over specifications with me. My I-group will be meeting in about 1 hour, oh wait they are meeting right now since my computer is still on EDT. Lemme fix that.

4:27pm

Oh. I'm silly. It's an hour earlier now, not later.

Sadness

5:24pm EDT Monday 14 October 2002

I just feel all poopypants, as Wende would say. And I don't mean diarrhea, although I did just eat 12 ounces of chocolate covered cherries while I'm "trying" to work on Kim's website.

I've had an overall energy sucky lethargy that I can't seem to shake. I don't feel safe enough here to cry, but maybe I will when Steve goes to dinner with his daughter tonight. Aw fuck this just sucks big crap.

4:29pm CDT Monday 14 October 2002

Maybe I should just go to sleep for a while. But then I feel scared to miss Kim's phone call. Fuck fuck fuck. This is just absolutely stupidity.

4:46pm

Today I learned there is a sauna in this house. It's in the basement. I bet a sauna is a great place to cry.

6:13pm

Well, I didn't really cry, but I did fall asleep near a thermometer reading 135 degrees F. It was near me, but also right above the heater. I was next to the heater, so not quite as hot. But I did sweat after about 20 minutes. I was in there for almost 1 hour.

I feel a tad better. A tad.

9:26pm CDT Monday 14 October 2002

Finally. I bawled my eyes out as I wrote to Kim, telling him that I don't really have anyone to talk to. On some levels I feel so alone out here on my grand adventure. And that's just part of the package that I've chosen for myself. I definitely feel a lot better after crying. Good job me.

Still not perfect, but better.

card counting story

11:34pm CDT Monday 14 October 2002

Dude sent me this link.

MIT hacks Las Vegas.