Entries this day: Catherine after bike_injuries idiot

Catherine

6:16pm CST Monday 1 April 2002

Last night while chilling with Kristen and Catherine at Biba's I was all "wow" about Catherine's apparent Yoga skillz, and her physical beauty.

There was a moment while she was just looking at me talking, oh I know when it was, she was all, "you're a really nice guy, so when you say something negative about Bonnie I'm thinking, 'oh my god she must be really psycho.'" or something. She was all, "you're a really nice guy," and the message in my head was thinking "you're a really nice guy, but... [for whatever reason] I can't date you." and then that's not what she said, but started talking about Bonnie, and I was just like, damn Catherine your face is so pretty! Your face, hair, eyes, smile, cute little nose.. wow.

I will be sure to maintain what's best for me if I start hanging out with her Yoga-style. She invited me to be one of her students, and I imagine part of that is her just trying to get students, so I think we should be clear that it will be a good thing for both of us before we get started. We're smart; we can do well.

after

9:01 pm Monday 1 April 2002

Tom and Jon checked out of I-group tonight.

Robin, Dennis, and I were the onlly ones left tonight.

6:55 am 2-4-02

I went to Wende's to pick up stuff from her, and I had a heavy feeling of sadnes while there. I didnt really have an idea of what it was about. I told her that Tom and Jon left I group, something else, and then mentioned that Erika came to lunch toda and I thought that I would get to hang out with her, but I didn't. And I really cried a significant amount about that. It tok some effort for me to just stay in the emotion and experience it as opposed to being all, 'how can I be so sad about that?'

Wende asked if she could give me some fedback: 'mostly, I just hear that you are tired.'

'The truth is that when I said I was up late last night, I meant I was up until 4:45am.'

'Why?'

'Talking to Kristen and Catherine at Biba's.' and then, 'thank you for listening to me.'

'Sometimes it's hard to listen because I'm afraid you'll say, 'and then we kissed,' or something.'

'I hear you. At this point, it really doesn't look like that's going to happen. So far since I broke up with you I have broken up with Dude's friend Amy, I think I've broken up with Lee-eh, and I broke up maybe with someone else.'

'One day you will learn that you don't have to be with someone to be worthy' or something like that.

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I got to sleep around 11:30pm

bike injuries

6:38 pm Monday 1 April 2002

Four incidents while riding my bike to I-group tonight:

1. I was riding pretty fast on the sidwalk beside Richmond. In the upcoming intersection, a car was waiting at the light pulled forward enough to block the pedestrian crossing (not that one was marked).

   I was going too fast to comfortably go down the sidewalk into his street, curve around him and then back onto my previous path, so I considered jumping into the street way back here so I wouldn't have to do a quick dogleg around the car.

   Looked behind me - no cars for a mile. Bunny hopped sideways toward the street, but I didn't get my back wheel up far enough to clear the lawn between sidewalk and street. In the air... falling sideways... street coming soon... landed kinda sideways on the street. Scraped my left forearm under my elbow, bonk on left hip, slight scrape on left knee, bruise on inside left ankle where the crank on my bike landed. Glasses were a bit sideways, though my head didn't hit anything. Got up, rolled slowly to get my chain back onto the front sprocket, rode in front of the car that had stopped in my way. Didn't notice if s/he noticed me. Fortunately it was relatively smooth asphalt and not concrete.

2. My back tire came loose as I jumped up a curb. I'm guessing this was precipitated from my earlier wreck, after which I had not checked my components.

3. My chain came loose as I jumped off the curb to cross 610 on Richmond. This was somewhat bad timing cause I was in the street with cars behind me in rush hour traffic mode.

4. Another car was in my way at an intersection. I successfully transferred from sidewalk to street (rode over the grass instead of bunny hopping sideways) and as I prepared to bunny hop up the curb, I noticed a puddle 18 inches across or so between the curb and sidewalk. So I lifted *hard* and cleared that puddle, but there was another puddle just past it and my front tire went *splosh* into it and squirted muddy water on my shirt and hit me in the eye. Doh! I was close to arrival, so I didn't stop in search of water somewhere.

Rinsed my eye, washed my injuries when I got to I-group.

idiot

6:11pm CST Monday 1 April 2002

D is an idiot. Why am I so short tempered with him? How can he be so old and so dumb all at once? how does this serve me to be pissed at his ineptness?

I am just trying to get some work done around here and he's fucking around with the phone system that we've had for over a year and he still can't figure it out. And I'm not talking about how to set up a conference call with someone or how to transfer someone to voice mail, not that those are hard to do, but I'm talking about fucking hanging up the fucking phone. The speakerphone in this case. How can he not know how to use and hang up the speakerphone? Oh and when he was paged, he said hello and they couldn't hear him so the instant obvious no-fucking-shit solution is to click the mic button. And then to hang up, click the hangup button.

fuck!

Why am I so worked up about this?