Entries this day: fear-vs-love

fear vs love

(written 15 February 2022) I'm not sure the exact date, but had this experience during my trip to Seattle and Vancouver.

I had a visceral experience of fear-vs-love after having eaten seven cookies with marijuana. (Apparently one or two would have been better for a first timer!)

I believed my host was Satan and I had been trapped: the entire universe had been created so that I would have this moment of experiencing time going forward and backward simultaneously.

I was paralyzed with fear. This went on for a while (20 minutes of infinite lifetimes) until the family dog came up and licked my hands. I had enough awareness to realize "the dog is not in on it," so I trusted the dog enough that I was willing to move toward him and get some dog kisses.

It was in that moment motion toward love, I realized the compounding effect of our attractive universe. When I focused on love, it magnified infinitely into love. When I focused on fear, it magnified infinitely into fear.

I can best describe it as the experience standing between two flat mirrors. The tiniest alignment off center is exponentially magnified.

I thanked all that is good for the experience in which I felt the dramatic impact of the smallest adjustment of my focus toward either love or fear.